Changes

Chapter 7

I paced around my room with my phone in my hand. I was nervous. I couldn't even think straight. Should I chat him? Should I make him beg for it? My mind was swarming like bees; filled with questions. I barely concentrated in class. He was all I can think about. It seems to be that way lately. I would ask my girls for their opinions, but I already know what they would say and I don't think I can go to sleep without knowing what Justin had to say. I stopped pacing and took a deep breath. It was time to be brave. I sat down on my bed and opened the app that lead to the instant message on my phone. I searched for his name and there he was; Justin Simms. I tapped his name on the screen of my phone to begin a chat. I didn't know what to say. Should I say 'Hey' with one 'y' or two, maybe three? This whole process was becoming stressful. At this point I didn't care; Justin would have to accept me for who I am. So I decided to go formal.

Me: Hello Justin.

Kill me now.

Justin: What took you so long? It's almost 9 o'clock; for a moment there I thought you weren't going to chat me.

Me: Oh I just had to do something... Sorry for the wait.

Justin: Its okay. I'm all better now :)

Cute.

Justin: I just wanted to tell you a couple of things, so that you know my mind set and how I feel.

Oh god. Here it comes.

Me: Okay. I'm listening.

Justin: Umm... I'm actually kinda nervous telling you this....

Me: Don't be. I don't bite.

Justin: lol I know you are probably confused as hell right now, trust me I am too. I feel something for you that I haven't felt about a person ever before in my life. You have this thing about you that with just one look, you make me want to confess every sin that I committed. I know I just laid my eyes on you just yesterday, but it feels like I've been looking at your beautiful face for centuries.

...Wow

Justin: I just wished I met you sooner. It would've made my life so much easier.

Me: What do you mean?

Justin: I want to tell you, but too much is at stake right now and I can't risk losing you.

Me: Wait! What are u saying? You're making no sense Justin...

Justin: I know. Right now it will be confusing, but in due time you will know; just please don't give up on me. Whatever feeling that we have right now of each other, please Delilah don't lose it. Promise me that?

Me: I promise... So what now?

Justin: Now we just become friends. Even though it will kill me, especially seeing you all over that kid in Gym.

Me: What kid?

Justin: The one with the hair.

Me: Oohh you're talking about Cameron lol

Do I hear some jealousy?

Justin: Yeah, yeah, yeah him... Do you think you can handle us being friends?

Me: Yes, I think I can.

I lied.