Apollo's Moon

Chapter 13

~Apollo~

I looked at her sleeping form,she looks so peaceful.She looks like an angel...so innocent....so pure.

I can't bare to look at what I've done to her...my guilt is slowly devouring me. I....I can't bare to see her in pain...in agony.

I've caused this pain to her....at pinagsisisihan ko talaga ang nagawa ko.I was not in control of my wolf that time.He completely over powered me.So many things happened.

Kung normal lang akong wolf at hindi ko sya mate...malamang ay kanina pa sya gumaling.One of the advantages of being a werewolf is to heal faster than any normal being.

And we age slowly as well....In the case of my mate.I had inflicted that deep wound to her kaya hindi sya gumagaling...Because I'm her mate...her mate is the one who hurt her.

Gagaling sya ng mas matagal...parang paggaling ng isang normal na tao.Tatanggapin ko kung magagalit sya sa akin dahil kasalanan ko naman talaga ang nangyari sa kanya.

I lost control over my wolf...at natatakot ako na hindi lang isang beses pwedeng mangyari ito.My wolf is strong..no doubt . He's dominating...At kailangan kong ipaalam sa kanya na ako dapat ang may kontrol sa katawan namin.

I'm battling with myself...at walang kasiguraduhan kung mananalo ba ako laban sa sarili ko.

I snapped out of my deep thought when I heard the door open.It was Ethan.

Hindi ko sya tinignan...Masyadong maraming nangyari ngayon at kailangan ko ng sariling oras para matanggap ang lahat ng iyon.

"How is she doing?" He calmly asked.

Hindi ko sya nasagot dahil...she's not doing good.Hindi sya nagigising for the past 3 days at kasalanan ko ang lahat ng ito.

Mukhang nakuha nya dahil hindi na sya nagtanong ulit.

"So....she's your mate?" He suddenly asked.I just nodded.

Tumango-tango sya...sa isang iglap lang ay nakalapat na ang likod ko sa pader at hinahawakan na nya ng mahigpit ang collar ng damit ko,it did not faze me...I kind of saw it coming that's why I'm not really surprised.

I loooked at him coldly. "Put me down." I used my Alpha voice at him.

"Tell me....totoo ba ang lahat ng sinabi nya sa akin?" He darkly and lowly asked,he's trying to restrain himself.

"Ang alin?" I curiously asked.

"Gusto mo ba talagang ikwento ko ang lahat ng ginawa mo sa kanya?!" He suddenly yelled.Then those memories came rushing back to me...like a thunder it struck me real hard.

Hindi ako sumagot bagkos ay inalis ko ang mahigpit na pagkakahawak nya sa akin....kahit mahigpit iyon ay kaaagad kong naaalis dahil mas malakas ako sa kanya.

"Totoo ba?!" His voice boomed...I just nodded.

Natumba ako ng bigla nya akong suntukin...naramdaman kong tumulo ang dugo mula sa basag kong labi.Hindi ako lumaban...Because I deserve this...I deserve to be beaten really badly.

Patuloy nya lang akong sinuntok...binugbog.Hindi ako lalaban at wala akong balak . I'm gonna take all of this pain because I deserve this.

Nararamdaman kong gusto nanamang lumabas ng wolf ko...I did not let him.I tried really hard to control him and thankfully I succeeded.

Naririnig ko ang mga yapak ng takbuhan papunta sa kwartong ito..patuloy parin akong sinusuntok ni Ethan at hindi parin ako lumalaban.I tried to numb my body para hindi ko gaanong maramdaman ang sakit.Pero nararamdaman ko parin,madali lang gagaling ang mga sugat na ito.

Naalis ang pagkakahawak sa akin ni Ethan at narinig ko ang boses ng dad ko.

"What have you done?!" He asked in anger.

"Ano?! Sige ipagtanggol nyo ang paborito nyong anak! Alam nyo ba lahat ng pinaggagagawa nyan?!" He yelled as well.

"Don't talk to me like that Ethan!" My father used his Alpha voice which is really strong because he's the current Alpha.

Hindi sya sumagot pero tumingin sya sa direksyon ko...nakahiga ako sa sahig at hindi gumagalaw.

"Nakakahiya ka!" He spat in disgust.Tumingin lang ako sa ibang direksyon ng kwartong ito...totoo ang lahat ng iyon.Nakakahiya nga ako...napakawalang-kwenta ko.

I'm supposed to care,protect and love my mate.But I'm the one who hurt her that's why I deserve this humiliation.

I feel so ashamed of myself.

"That's enough Ethan!" My dad said.

Umiling-iling sya...disbelief is plastered on his face.

Mabilis syang lumabas mula sa kwartong ito...tinignan ko ang katawan ko..Unti unting gumagaling ang mga sugat na dinulot ni Ethan.

I heard a pained moan...galing iyon kay Milla .Agad akong tumayo at tumakbo papunta sa kanya. Pawis na pawis sya at may sinasabi na hindi ko naman maintindihan.I think she's having a nightmare.I gently touched her shoulder and poked it lightly,kabilang balikat iyon...hindi iyon ang nakagat ko.

She screamed,at napakabalikwas mula sa pagkakahiga.Humihingal sya habang tinitignan ang paligid nya.

"You're awake." I gently said.

I tried touching her cheek but she shook my hand away.

"Don't touch me." She coldly said....I'm going to lie If I say that that didn't hurt me...but who am I to complain? Ako ang may gawa nito.And these are all the consequences.

Yumuko ako..wala akong mukhang maihaharap sa kanya.Kaya tumayo ako napagpasyahang kumuha ng pagkain para sa kanya.

I know she's mad at me,pero mate ko parin sya and I'm going to mark her weather she like it or not.

And she's going to be my Luna...binabalak kong ituloy ang pagpapakilala sa kanya sa pack bukas ng gabi.

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I'm sooo sorry if this is kind of dry and short...but you know I'm not perfect kaya pagtsagaan nyo muna hehe.But I promise that the next chapter will get alot more interesting! Anyways thanks for the support and love! Love you all!

-Keishaaa

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