Life has its ups and downs. At this point in my life, I'm not very sure if I'm happy or sad... Probably just confused. About August 13th I got asked out by a friend of mine I've known for quite a while. More specifically, three years. I didn't know how to react to such a situation due to not dating for 8 months straight, but i did know saying "no" would not do any justice between or friendship. So guess what my dumb self said? "Sure..." Though there is so attraction to this person that I am currently still apparently dating, I do think he's quite a funny guy. He's at least 5'11, heavy build, black, and has a nice voice. Not to mention, he makes music. I hated how he asked me to be in a relationship when we aren't even talking everyday and I told him myself that i have my "fuck girl" moments. Which i did... On August 28th.
On the 28th I got a tad bit bored. Messaged a couple people I had been flirtaciously talking to in that month. And I came across a guy that I recently had an argument with due to his controlling self. I don't really find controlling or aggressive guys attractive, but something about how he presented himself and his reputation around our community was pretty well announced. He messaged me, asking if I'd like to hang out and my petty self didn't want to, not only because i keep grudges but because of how he disrespected me 3 days before that current date. We texted for a while and finally after, I gave in and we hung out.
Now me and you (you, the person reading this story) knows what goes down when you really are attracted to someone. All of that shenanigans continued for about an hour and a half, I went back home... And was thinking about him for a while. His face looked so familiar... Later that day i realized that i had met this certain individual 5 years ago, 2011, at a friends place. It was weird and iconic how I realized after so long, but a certain memory sparked and i remebered that certain moment how i opened the front door and he was standing out, greeting me. He till this day doesn't have a single clue we met 5 years ago, cause that 5 years ago me wasn't fully developed, no boobs or ass... And I'd not really enjoy him remember how ugly i was.
Plot twist as well, the friends house that i was hanging out at, her sister had the biggest crush on this guy. Another plot twist, one of my other friends currently has a crush on him now. On 2015 one of my close friends at the time showed me his profile and was talking about him in such a well manner with so many great things to say. I thought to myself, not one individual could be so perfect the way she's describing him. At that time also, i didn't realize who she was talking about because i never really listened to a single word she said. Every time we hung out she had a new crush, so i figured, this is just another one.
Now, i have to keep my love (lifes) private. Not only am i dating two people, but i am also taking a risk and loosing friends. Kinda fucked, but that's just how my life goes.
