CHAPTER 12
I woke up, thinking the dream was real and looking around the room. "MOM!!" I called my mom screaming. I didn't hear an answer. I looked at the time and it was 6 am. She was still home.
I walked to her bedroom and knocked before I could open the door. Still no answer. I then opened the door and found my mom on the floor. My heart ripped out of my body and I screamed as if my life was over. "Mom, MOM!" I screamed on the top of my lungs. I called the ambulance. They reached in 30 minutes, I tried everything, she was still breathing. I heard the sirens and rushed my mom downstairs so I could put her in and rush to the hospital. My heart stopped once again when they were checking if she was still alive, we rushed to the hospital and my mind has so much thoughts running through. Why so sudden? It was as if Allah woke me up for a reason. How ironic, I just hope I noticed my mom laying on the floor at the right time. I was holding my moms hand and she had a grip on mine, she knew I was with her. A mom is your everything, and just imagining losing a person that's the only person that understands you and takes care of you is insane. My father and my mom separated a while back, and I have no siblings. So I have no one else if my mom dies. My mom is the only one I have. My dad is careless, he lost contact with me when I was 14 years old. Now I'm 16, about two years. He never cared about anyone but himself, and I'm sure it'll back fire him soon. My face was burning. My tears were flaming down my cheeks, and I didn't notice how hard I was wiping them off, I ripped my skin. My skin was bleeding, a daughters nightmare. It's so weird how everything happened at rush. I saw my mom, laying on the floor, I didn't look at any thing around her but her, it was as if everything was blurry and she was the focus on the camera of my eyes. I didn't know either she took too much from her medications, or she had a heart attack, anything could of happened.
The ambulance made a turn and there it was, hopefully I walk out of this hospital with my mother... Alive. My mom opened her eyes after a couple of hours. They were shiny, I don't know if she was crying, or they were just so shiny. She held my hand and her thumb rumbing my hand. Her hands were weak, really weak. She wasn't feeling well, and I'm not a doctor nor a nurse, but I know that's not a good sign. The doctor asked me to leave the room and sit on the chair. He also offered me a separate room to rest but I don't know how he could ask my that, while this tragic incident is happening. I politely said no and sat out side. From where I was sitting I could perfectly see my mom from the tiny circled window. I noticed that her skin was paler. Not her usual skin. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice a person was sitting beside me, but I didn't care who was sitting beside me, I cared for my moms life. I felt as if this is the last day I will ever see her alive. Memories swinged through my head of me and her, all the good times I've had with her. From when I was 3 years old to now. It's so weird, we celebrate our birthdays, and we grow old but we never notice our parents growing old. A hand went rushing down my back and I got scared, I finally looked beside me and noticed I had company. Wayne, my knight. "Why are you here, and how did you know I was here?" I asked with pain in my tone. "I noticed polices all over your house, I asked why they are there and they said your mom got rushed to the hospital. They said this could be a criminal act." He replied rubbing and squeezing my arms. I then looked at my mom again. I also noticed a nurse rushing to the room, I got up to ask her what's wrong and she didn't answer me but she told Wayne to hold on to me. Tears went streaming down my cheeks again, I was so shocked I was still wondering if this was just a dream like the kidnapping one. But no, this was real life. The doctor came out of the room and gave my the bad news I was hoping not to hear. "I'm sorry miss. You're mother just passed away. We tried everything we could, was your mom taking something called Phenazepam?" He asked. I screamed and didn't understand a word he said, I ran into the room and checked to see if she was actually gone. I couldn't believe it, how could this happen? Wayne held me tight, I cried into his chest, I was crying so much I got called to go out of the hospital. I looked up at the sky and the sky colour was grayish blue, there was a lot of crows flying up in the sky. It was as if this was a sad story.
It started to rain, maybe what ever they say in movies is true. When something sad happens, it starts to rain. My heart was empty, I wasn't sure how I'm going to do school, graduate, with no one beside me that is my blood. With someone that loves me, with my mom. I went back into the hospital and walked into the room. My mom looked like she was ready for heaven. Her skin was back at it's colour and they changed her clothes into this yellow dress. She looked like a baby, she looked gorgeous. Her skin looked amazing, and she looked like a young teenage girl. Me and my mom went through a lot in life, but this was yet the worst. I felt lost already. I held her again to see if she still had a grip. It was lost, she was empty just like I was.
I was just thanking Allah that I had Wayne. He was the ease to my pain. He hugs me as if he never wants to ever let go. And I knew I never wanted him to leave. I'm upset that I have to start my life all over again, but this time with no parents. Just like my dad left this family, I also lost my mother. The feeling of no parents was horrible. I wasn't ready for the future, but Wayne was by my side from the beginning.
New beginning.
