It seems as if you mean something to someone and things change. You guys argue and one person seems to go above and beyond, and the other seems as if they lost all their feelings. I don't know if it's just me, but after insanely arguing with someone I truly have feelings for i think of the scenario over and over again until my mind drives me insane and i just seem to love them even more. The thought of that certain someone brings a smile to your face and makes your heart all mushy until you remember what they said during an argument. But obviously, when you have strong feelings you always read between the lines and ignore how a person truly is.
I told more people about him. I guess privacy just didn't make me a happy person. I wanted privacy, but i also wanted to talk about him all the time to someone. So i talked, then i kept talking... It was bad i know. Couldn't keep my mouth shut for a single second. The things he did would drive me crazy and it would be totally insane not to share the sexy stories. The way he walked, talked, dressed, presented himself, his reputation... Everything seemed too good to be true. His smile, his scent, his feel... The way he drived, on speed limit. I loved how safe i felt with him. But i hate how he is. His habits.
It's kinda sweet and sour. The sweet part of him is how he is, the sour part is how we are alike. Arguments take place, but they never get fixed before the night ends. I'm the type to hold grudges and wait for a message first, and so is he. We both know we're alike. He also gets mad at the fact that i post pictures of myself but can't message him, so he says some hurtful things that make me rethink my perspective of him. He's nice sometimes, but he can be a total jerk. So many girls like him, he lives that double life. Good in front of people that know his parents, bad boy behind the scenes. I like mysterious, but his type of mysterious was too much to cope with. Chilling after 8, i understand he has a job, but seriously your shifts change, or you can chill earlier when you don't have work. It drives me insane when i think about it. I know when i like someone i go beyond my wills and do anything and everything to make that person happy. That's just me, some people are too scared to take risks. But its those risks you take that make you grow as an individual.
