Fading Memories (Chandler Riggs x Reader)

So I Guess This Is Goodbye?

  (Y/N)'s P.O.V

After my tears and the sobs that had earlier racked my body quieted down, I realized who exactly was holding me and immediately tensed.

'Well this is a surprise... I thought he would be with Alexis and even if he came, I thought (F/N) would've kept him away'

"(Y/N)? Are you okay?" I hear Chandler ask, "What happened?"

'Oh if only you knew Chandler, if only you knew..."

Of course, I wasn't about to straight up and tell him that I was crying because of him. What was I going to say? I don't even want to think about how high the level of tension would've been.

"(Y/N)? Please answer me. I'm worried about you," He added and I hear a nasty voice in my head say:

'Are you really Chandler? Or do you just want to get this over with so you can get back with Alexis and continue your day without me ruining it?'

When this thought occurred I couldn't help the rage that flooded my body. It was like a virus that I couldn't contain and I, to be honest, I didn't like it one bit... but I didn't stop it from influencing my actions either.

With this newfound rage, I suddenly stood up, pulling away from his embrace and shocking everyone. I immediately ran back to the room me and (F/N) were staying in. I hear a thunder of footsteps behind me, trying their best to catch up but I wasn't having any of it. I urged myself to run a little faster and burst into my room. I turned around and tried to close the door but Chandler had used his foot as a doorstopper, stopping me from closing the door fully so I could lock it.

I groaned and stormed away from the door. Chandler immediately came in and locked the door, I know because I heard the sound of the lock click. I sat on my bed and he stood by the door, staring at me with this look of an emotion that I couldn't read associated with the crossing of his arms. Silence hung in the air for a few minutes. I couldn't hear anything other than the hushed muttering coming from outside, no doubt they were the others and (F/N) was probably telling them that they should give us some time to talk.

"(Y/N)," I hear Chandler break the silence with a very serious tone that scared me and now that I had let out my rage (sort of) all I could feel was... well I don't really know how to describe it. You know that feeling when you know you're going to get scolded because of something you did out of anger? Well add that feeling with the feeling of sadness, worry, and dread... Dread that the one you loved had maybe... maybe formed the same love for someone else. That was how I was feeling.

"(Y/N)," he repeated and I just knew there was gonna be a lecture after that, "What happened back there? One minute, you were crying, sobbing actually and the next you're stomping off as if someone had gotten on your nerves. You know..." I didn't know actually. After that, I had just stopped listening and focused on my thoughts more than the words coming out of his mouth.

'(Y/N). It's now or never. Ask him... ask him the question that's been lingering... haunting your mind for the past few days... Once he explains, make a decision and stick with it no matter what.

"Do you still love me?" I ask, cutting off his lecture about who knows what because, heck, you know that I wasn't listening.

"What?"

"Do you still love me?" I repeat, my voice cracking at the end. I could feel a nudge on the dam holding back my tears and an aching sensation in my throat... as if I was choking and couldn't breathe... as if there was something stuck in it like a lump.

"What are you talking about (Y/N)? Of course I love you," he said, making his way over to me and sitting beside me. He put his hand under my chin and tilted my face so my eyes could meet his.

"What's wrong?" he asked me. I ripped my chin away from him and looked away. There was no way I could ask him this question while looking him in the eyes.

"Do you like her?" I ask, the choking sensation becoming worse and my vision becoming slightly blurry, making me do my best to blink back tears.

"(Y/N) What the heck are you talking about?" he asked me and I just snapped.

"You know who I'm talking about Chandler!!!" I practically shouted, standing up from my place on the bed and turning to face him, "You've been hanging out with her for the last few days and letting her become the reason why we're drifting apart!"

"(Y/N) I..."

"Don't you dare sugarcoat it. Don't you dare hide it and don't you dare lie," I glared at him, one tear slipping from the crack in the dam that was holding back an ocean of tears. Who knows how long it would be before it would completely break? Let me tell you one thing though, it definitely wasn't much longer.

"Yes! Ok?!? Dammit yes! I like her! So? It's probably just a simple crush!" he confessed, raising his voice to match mine. He stood up and glared right back at me.

"Don't tell me that that wasn't what you thought the first time you got feelings for me and judging from what you've been doing for the past few days, I'm pretty sure that it's more than 'just a crush'," I glared back at him with such emotion that I saw his glare soften until it was completely gone.

I didn't need to question him further when all I got in return was silence.

'Of course... I guess I had it coming all along... Our relationship was way too good to be true... of course it would turn out like this'

"(Y/N)..." I hear him say. I must have said it out loud but that wasn't why I flinched. I flinched because of the pain evident in his voice.

"It's fine Chandler. Like I said, I should've seen it coming. I'll just go ahead and save you the trouble from choosing," I say, taking a deep breath. God knows I need it, considering what I was going to say next. I didn't exactly want it but then again. If he felt the same then he could protest... and I would probably give in and--- NO!! (Y/N)! NO! Don't get your hopes up.

"(Y/N) please don't—"

"We're over. Now please leave and please just stay away from me. Don't contact me unless it is urgent and about work," I say, not meeting his eyes for fear that if I did then I would give in and who knows, maybe a couple of months later, the same thing would happen once again and we'd only be hurt once again. I had to do this now.

"(Y/N) Can we just---"

"Please Chandler Please"

I stay where I am until I hear footsteps recede and the lock of a door open and the door itself.

"I love you so much (Y/N). You will always be my first princess," he said and with that, he exits the room. I stand there for a second, not being able to feel any particular emotion. I expected to feel sadness, anger, pain... but none of that came and honestly this was worse.

You know that feeling when you're feeling so many emotions at once that they're all jumbled up and you don't feel anything at all... as if you were made out of stone? Well that was what I was feeling. I had read about a person who felt this in a fanfic once and I thought that they were only joking when they said that they would rather have felt sadness, anger, any type of emotion so long as what they were feeling would go away... well now I guess I know they weren't.

For the whole time I just stood there, tears streaming down my face, my hands and lip trembling, my eyes not really focusing on anything as it flittered from one part of the room to another... almost as if they were looking for something... for someone. Well unless you weren't listening earlier, you would know who I was referring to.

I practically ignored my surroundings and I also ignored (F/N) and Brianna as they rushed into the room, asking for the reason as to why Chandler was doing... something, I didn't hear exactly what but it seemed important. Their rambling cut off when they saw the state I was in. They immediately went into 'mother mode' as they once called and started fussing over what I looked like. When I wasn't making smart and sarcastic comebacks at some of their insults then they knew it was serious. They made me sit down although I didn't feel it. What I did feel though was a tightening in my chest.

All of a sudden I was choking and couldn't breathe. I clutched my chest and gasped for breath but none of the sweet oxygen that was in the atmosphere entered my lungs. I found myself clutching, clawing at my chest in an attempt to get air into my lungs. I started seeing black dots frame my sight and I passed out...

Chandler's P.O.V

I lean against the railing, looking out onto the beautiful sunset. It couldn't lift my mood though... at this point, nothing could. Let me show you why...

*EARLIER TODAY*

I was roaming the ship with Alexis and Sam. (Y/N), (F/N), and Brianna were with us a while ago, but they went somewhere else. I noticed that (Y/N) and I have been spending a lot of time apart. I guess it is partially (Partially?!?!? You're kidding right?) my fault for spending so much time with Alexis but I couldn't help it. She was funny and sweet and no one could deny that she was very pretty.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard someone sobbing. I stopped walking and Alexis and San, noticing the lack of footsteps, turned around to look at me.

"Do you guys hear that?" I ask them and they stay silent to listen too. Now that there was close to no noise, I could definitely hear someone crying, well sobbing to be exact.

"We should go to the sound. What if someone's in trouble?" Sam said and he seemed worried. I gave him a nod and we took off, down the corridor from where we thought we heard the sobbing.

We came to a completely deserted corridor that wasn't far from our rooms. I glanced down it both ways but the sight on my right made me take a second glance. The sight I saw before me saddened, confused, but most of all, worried me.

'Why was my Princess sobbing? Plus who had done what to her? I swear when I find out then they will not live to see tomorrow.'

I run to her sobbing form that was being comforted by (F/N) and Brianna. When they saw me, Brianna immediately stood up and told me to leave.

"What the hell are you talking about? This is my girlfriend sobbing her eyes out! I should be there for her," I said and Brianna glanced down at (Y/N) and (F/N). I see her eyes soften a bit but she still continues to block my path to her.

"Brianna. You have to let me through. Please! It hurts me to see her like this and it kills me to just stand here and watch," I beg her and she reluctantly moves out of the way and after a bit of coaxing from Sam, so does (F/N).

'What the hell was going on?'

I immediately drop down on the floor beside her and pull her into my lap. I start stroking her hair and rubbing her back as she continues to let the sobs rack her body. I question her but she doesn't answer me so I resort to whispering sweet nothings in her ear.

She eventually calms down but stays quiet for a long period of time while I try to pry an answer from her but she seems to ignore me. Suddenly, she stands and runs away, down the corridor and to the rooms with me following close behind. I see her run into her and (F/N)'s room and try to shut the door but I block it with my foot.

'Thank God my shoes are thick'

I hear her groan in annoyance I think and I enter the room, locking it behind me. I stand by the door as she goes to sit on the bed. Her eyes are immediately glued to the floor whereas mine are still on her. I cross my arms and say, "(Y/N)"

After a while, I decide to speak again.

"(Y/N). What happened back there? One minute, you were crying, sobbing actually and the next you're stomping off as if someone had gotten on your nerves. You know that you can tell me anything, right? You don't have to be afraid in fact, why would you be afraid to tell me something like this? I love you and you love me I don't see why----" I was suddenly cut off by a bone-chilling -coming from her- question that I hoped I would never hear.

"Do you love me?" The question itself didn't mind me, but the way she said it... her voice sounded so broken... so full of pain that I literally cringed at the sound of it and I didn't know what to say, hell, I didn't even know if I heard it right.

"What?" I choke out, dreading the question that she would repeat.

"Do you love me?"

"What are you talking about (Y/N)? Of course I love you," I say, making my way over to her and sitting beside her. I put my hand under her chin and tilted her face up so my eyes could meet hers

"What's wrong?" I asked her but she just ripped her chin out of my grasp and looked away.

'What is going on with her? I love her and she knows it. We haven't had any fights lately and all of a sudden she's like this? Was it something I did? I don't think I did anything too bad, did I? Whatever it is, I have to fix it, I will fix it...'

"Do you like her?" she asks and it finally hits me. What did I do wrong? I've been spending a lot more time with Alexis and it's hurting her... I'm hurting her... Shit!

"(Y/N) What the heck are you talking about?" I ask, even if I knew exactly what she was talking about. I didn't wanna answer her beacause I know what was the truth and it would hurt her... big time.

"You know who I'm talking about Chandler!!!" she practically shouted, standing up from her place on the bed and turning to face me, "You've been hanging out with her for the last few days and letting her become the reason why we're drifting apart!"

"(Y/N) I..."

'Don't know what to say... I know what I did was bad, horrible really and I'm speechless. Shit. I messed things up bad...'

"Don't you dare sugarcoat it. Don't you dare hide it and don't you dare lie," she glared at me and I saw a tear slip from her eye which made the guilt I felt a thousand times worse. I was feeling so many emotions at once that I didn't know what to show but I definitely showed the wrong one next...

"Yes! Ok?!? Dammit yes! I like her! So? It's probably just a simple crush!" I finally confess, but I'm not sure who I was trying to convince, my princess in front of me who was hurting because of me or me, the one who broke her... the one who did exactly what I promised her and everyone else that I wouldn't do...

"Don't tell me that that wasn't what you thought the first time you got feelings for me and judging from what you've been doing for the past few days, I'm pretty sure that it's more than 'just a crush'," she glared back at me with such emotion that I softened the glare on my face that I didn't even know was there. Anger is definitely not an emotion I should show when we have a fight... especially if I caused it. (me: really Chandler? You only realize that now?)

I didn't know what to say at that point. I had nothing to say...

"Of course... I guess I had it coming all along... Our relationship was way too good to be true... of course it would turn out like this," she says but I don't think I was meant to hear that, nevertheless, it broke me... knowing that that was what she really thought.

"(Y/N)..." is all I can say. She flinches from my tone and says, "It's fine Chandler. Like I said, I should've seen it coming. I'll just go ahead and save you the trouble from choosing."

'No. God no. Please no. Don't do this (Y/N). Don't do this to us. Please don't'

"(Y/N) please don't—"

"We're over. Now please leave and please just stay away from me. Don't contact me unless it is urgent and about work," she says, not meeting my eyes.

"(Y/N) Can we just---"

"Please Chandler Please"

I stay where I am contemplating whether or not to argue, but I decide that I've already caused her enough pain so I slowly move away and to the door, keeping my gaze directly on her.

I was about to exit, but then I realized that this might be the last words or the last time I would see my princess again. I better say something. I don't want my last memory of her to be sad or the last thing I said for that matter.

"I love you so much (Y/N). You will always be my first princess," I say and with that, I exit the room... I take a deep breath and feel the tears stream down my cheeks. I rush past everyone, ignoring their questions of what had happened. I shoot an answer of 'Just leave me alone,' to them and they immediately stop.

I walk out to the deck and lean against the railing.

*BACK TO THE PRESENT

Well now you know why. The only thing I can say know is that I guess this is goodbye?

A/N: ANOTHER CHAPTER!!! I am so sorry for the very sad chapter. I literally teared up a bit while writing this. Sadly, all things must come to an end so this book must end too. There will definitely be sequel so rejoice for that!!! Yay!! Anywho I have a new nickname for you guys now!!! Double Yay!!! Thanks to my friend on Quotev, but thank you so much for the nickname!! I love it!! So you shall all be my Lovely Walkers (I changed it, yes I know, I was just watching 'The Lovely Bones and thought why not incorporate her idea with the title so yeah!! I hope you like it) If you dont like it then just tell me in the comments but please dont be super rude anywho!!! I have nothing else to say so Until Next Time my Lovely Walkers!!!
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