As we enter Chandler's house, he quickly checks all the rooms "phew" I hear him say under his breath. "my parents aren't here" he mumbles.
We head upstairs to his room and he leaves the door open. "Okay" I begin. "This time it's your turn to ask me your 20 questions. Just-uh don't ask many of the same questions I asked you...be different" I say. "Oh, uh-yeah. Okay" he tenses up and agrees.
He picks up a light blue coloured pen and begins writing. "Madison..." He pauses. "Blake" I finish off his sentence for him.
"Umm...okay. Question 1" he pauses for thought "what is your biggest fear?" He finally asks.
"Wow, deep. I have quite a few fears to be honest" I look down. "Small spaces, spiders, death, elevators, drowning...dolls and believe it or not, public speaking" I list and he looks up at me. These are actually my real fears 😂
"I can see through your disguise, Madison" he's says quietly.
"Wh-what do you mean?" I ask, confused. I narrow my eyes at his statement.
He looks down again. "Y-you put on a front, you pretend your confident but...but really your an insecure, little girl. I can see through you, Madison"
My jaw tenses and I immediately get up, making him jump. I storm over to the middle of the room and whip myself around to face him, he is still sitting down at the desk. "Don't you fucking dare call me a little girl!" I yell in denial, pointing my finger at him from across the room.
He gets up and begins walking towards me but I back away. "See, you're putting on a front again, Madison" he holds his hands up in defence.
"Shut up, Chandler. Shut the fuck up!" I yell, tears welling up in my eyes.
Realisation begins to set in.
I begin breathing very heavily. I look down at my hands which are now trembling. I back up until my back hits the wall. As I slide my back down the wall, I bring my hands up to my head and scrunch my hair in my hands. I try to take deep breaths as I squeeze my eyes shut and cry into my hands.
"Madison" I hear a familiar voice.
I cover my face with my hands, so he can't see me cry. He slowly removes my hands from my face, one by one. I am now faced with Chandlers glistening, ocean, blue eyes. He is now knelt down to my height in front of me.
"You don't need to hide, Madison. he says softly.
"Wh-why?" I whimper, avoiding eye contact with him
"Because" he looks down, a little embarrassed.
He sighs. "Because you look really beautiful when you cry"
"No I don't. Shut up, Chandler" I sniffle, playfully pushing him away, as I slowly begin to stop crying.
I've never really been good a taking compliments.
He sighs and helps me up and we walk back over to the desk. I'm still shaking slightly.
"Chandler?" I ask, softly.
"What happened to you?" I say, staring at his, still red cheek.
He sighs. "I told you, it's none of your business"
"Fine..but your gonna have to tell me eventually." His jaw tenses.
"Are you okay to carry on?" He avoids what I've just said. I nod hesitantly.
"Are you sure?" I nod again.
"Listen...panic attacks are normal, Madison"
"I know"
His eyes widen slightly. "You know?...wait- you mean... that wasn't your first one?" He asks, slightly confused.
I sigh and purse my lips. "I...uh" I take a deep breath, "I-I suffer from anxiety" I finally blurt out. "I... I get panic attacks quite often" I look down in embarrassment.
"Madison, there's no need to be embarrassed...its part of who you are"
I sigh. "Maybe we can finish the questions on Monday. You must be drained" he suggests and I nod. We begin to pack up.
A/N
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