Georgetown Behavior Health Institutions

December 24th

It was a day before Christmas, going to families houses to have fun and open gifts. Supposed to be having a good time, right? Well, of course not for me. Me and Dalton were fighting again. I don't quite remember all the details, but I knew that it was because once again, Dalton decided to cheat on me. The real shitty thing is, is that I found out a day before Christmas. Merry Christmas to me huh? Just perfect. Know I have to act all happy around my family so I don't get repeatedly asked "whats wrong?" as if they really cared. So, I pretended to be the happy little "child". Later that night, I had what you can call a mental breakdown I guess. I did not sleep at all that night, which it kinda sucked because my family... they like to do everything in the morning. I laid there. staring at my ceiling majority of the night. There would be periods where I felt like I was going to cry but, when I started, no tears came out. Its as if I cried all my tears out. 10:30 pm, my Parents are already in bed past out. at this time I was texting Dalton trying to still figure things out. I of course wasn't going to leave him, although it was a short amount of time, me and him been together, I thought I loved him. But of course, what teenager who is dating someone doesn't think they are in love with each other. There is a reason why they call it "puppy love." 3:45 am, I got up and went outside. I went to lie in the grass and gaze at the stars. But with my luck the clouds were out so there were no stars. So I just laid there. 6 am, I was back in my room, back to staring at my ceiling, or watching the fan as it goes in circles. It felt like I would fall into some kind of gaze. It wasn't exactly like a day dream, because my mind was blank. It felt like i just left my body. 7:30 am, BOOM! My door comes flying open and i am being yelled at to get up so we can open gifts and do our yearly routine. My parents obviously did not know about Dalton, and after what has been going on between me and him, I kinda do not want tell them. Well, I knew I was not going to tell my dad. My dad and gays... they don't exactly get along. So for his son to be gay, i'm not sure how he would react.