Georgetown Behavior Health Institutions

April 28th

Not too much happened the next few days, just trying to adjust back to reality. Time seems to go by a lot slower when your in there. Majority of the time you don't even know what time it was. Days felt like weeks, and weeks felt like months. It feels like you missed so much in life when you're in there. Which really you do. In one day so much could happen. I mean look at me. In just one hour i fucked up my whole life. I knew from that moment i was caught for what I did, nothing was going to be the same. But, I knew eventually it would go back to normal, right? At some point, This would pass by. 

Of course I wasn't allowed back at school. In a few days I have a meeting with Mr. Washington, about what would happen so far as how I would be getting My education. I knew what was going to happen though. I knew they weren't going to let me back at the school, I knew I was going to have to go to Gateway. Gateway was an alternative school for kids who do bad.  But, I wasn't worried. AI knew what I did was wrong, and I also knew that I was going to have to face what I have done. 

I laid in bed for the day, nothing I could really do. My mind kept wondering back to Addison. I wanted to know how he was doing. I wanted to know if he was okay. It's been two days since iv'e been released, and I haven't heard from him. Maybe he's still there. He should of got out by now. Addison got there the morning I arrived, so he should be out by now. Unless something happened. If he couldn't handle it anymore, and he decided to attempt to end it. They would keep longer. What if he succeeded in his attempt. What if he never comes out of there, and I would never have a way to find out. What if I never talk to him. See that's what is disappointing about life. Sometimes things just aren't meant to be, and no matter how hard you want to try and make them work, if life chooses for it not to happen, there is no way around it. 

I would constantly wait for my phone to go off and it would be him. But, nothing. Every time my phone would go off, it'd be a Facebook notification, or Youtube. But when you come to realize it, no one from school has even reached out to me. No one knows exactly what happened, I just disappeared out of the blue, but yet, no one cares. No one texted me asking where have I been, Or that they were worried that I haven't been to school. Nothing. That's how you know you're true friends. True friends will come looking for you. They want to make sure you're okay. But, I guess I never had true friends. Foolish of me to believe I did. I didn't contact anyone from school either. I figured if they didn't have the time to see if I was okay, then what was the point in even trying to speak with them. Why not stay gone forever, right?