Georgetown Behavior Health Institutions

April 26th

I know i skipped a day but not much happened that day. But, today is my final day. I get to finally get away from this place, and never have to come back. I also do not have to see Addison anymore... Which to be honest, i don't know how to feel about that. I mean i wanna say i like Addison, but at the same time, i can already tell he is one of those people who like to mess around. But it doesn't matter, i'm going home and i do not plan on coming back again. Just like last time, i waited to get discharged. But of course just like last time people wanted my contact information, so i gave it out. Addison asked for my number so he can text me after he got out, i wanted to say no, but i ended up giving it to him anyway. I wanted nothing to do with him, but I just couldn't deny it. That's the problem with me. I fall way too easy, and that is why I am so mentally fucked up. Because when shit falls apart, it hits me hard, and I don't know how to deal with it. 

My mother came up to the unit to sign the papers and then they pulled me out to sign the papers also, while signing the papers, but before leaving I gave Addison my journal. My journal was the one I had since the first day i got here so, It had some stuff in it. It also had stuff in it about him. I wanted to know how I truly felt so I wrote him a letter. The letter was the last page in the book. I knew he would eventually read it I just hope he realizes how much he actually meant to me. And yes I know, some of you are like : how could someone mean this much to you, if one you barley met them, and two you're in a hospital." well, Time in here goes slowly. You're trapped in a room with the same people for 14 hours out of the day. it's like as if you were living with them. So you tend to grow attached to them quickly.  it was also around lunch so everyone was heading down to the cafeteria. Addison walked up to me and pulled me into a hug, I was surprised, but I hugged back. Then he continued down to the cafe. After I got home I went straight to bed. I just wanted this day to be over with already, I never want to think about about Georgetown or Addison again.