Stitch (5SOS)

Chapter 13.

Alissa's POV

I woke up on a leather couch, in the middle of a living room, alone. I quickly sat up and looked around. I stood up and walked through the unfamiliar house. I contemplated leaving, but I was obviously here for a reason. I started up the stairs.

"Where you going, babe?" a voice asked behind me. I turned around to see Calum in loose gray sweatpants, large black sweater, and a dark red beanie. I ran to his arms. I pulled him in a tight hug and he slowly put his arms around my waist. "What's wrong Alissa?" He asked me, sounding really confused.

"Where are we?" I asked into his chest.

"We're, in my house? You might not remember you looked really tired when you got here...You don't remember falling asleep on me?" He said with his forehead touching the top of my head. He towers over me. I slowly shook my head in response to his question.

"You don't remember seeing my mom?"

"I promise I don't remember anything." I said, my face still in his chest.

"Well it's okay, I'll still be here for you baby." I pulled my face out of his chest and gave him a weird look.

"Please don't call me baby." I whispered and raised my eyebrows.

"Okay, then can I call you mine?" He asked with a half smile. I laughed, pushed myself away from his chest, and walked up the stairs. "Where do you think you're going?"

"Your room. Which door?" I asked as I turned around. He pointed to the first door on the right and I walked in. His room was pretty big, and messy.

"I never said it was clean." It wasn't that bad, there was just some clothes on the floor and some cups around the room. I stepped over it all and sat on his bed. He came over and laid behind me. "You can lay down you know." he quietly told me.

"I'm good." He sat up and leaned his back against his headboard. I scooted next to him.

"You always say that I'm kissing a girl I barely know, how can I get to know you better?" He looked down at our feet. "I'm not gonna stop kissing you, no matter how much I don't know."

The way he said that gave me chills. He likes me for me, and that's it. Nothing could change that.

"Well what do you want to know?" I asked him and put my head on his shoulder.

"I don't know. Things to know before you date someone." He shrugged his shoulders. We're moving really fast in this dating-kissing-awkward-relationship thing we're in. I don't know if I want to date Calum. I know the butterflies in my stomach when he kisses me, how nervous I get whenever he's around. I know I haven't felt like this with anyone, so I guess I do want to date him, but just move a little slower.

"Can I ask you a serious question before we start?" I asked. I lifted my head up and faced him.

"Go ahead. Shoot."

"Do you think we're moving a little fast? I mean we were practically strangers two days ago."

He hesitated for minute before answering.

"I just want to get close to you. I've only ever been with girls that are down for anything on the first date. But for me, you're different. I didn't bring Chelsea to my house after a few dates. You came over after our first. I want to get close to you before I screw up and you end up hating me." He put his head down. "Like I did with Chelsea..." He whispered to himself. I hesitated, then I asked him,

"So did you really cheat on her?" I asked.

He sighed and lifted his head and looked straight forward. He bit the inside corner of his mouth and nodded his head.

"So, you lied to me?" I asked with a serious tone.

"It was our first date, I didn't want to drive you away, I like you a lot. What choice did I have?"

"To tell me the truth?" I was talking louder now. "If you can't be honest on our first date, how do I know you'll be honest with me in a relationship?"

"This is what I meant by screwing up and making you hate me." He said as he let his head fall back to look at the ceiling.

"Well this is pretty important information. I'm not sure I want a relationship with a person that cheats!"

"I understand, I wouldn't either-"

"Then why did you do it? Chelsea didn't do anything wrong, she went on vacation. If I leave town are you gonna hook up with a girl behind my back and lie to me?" I started to get off his bed.

"Alissa, just let me explain, you don't know the whole story." He pleaded.

"Okay, I'm all ears. Tell me the one scenario you were in that made it okay to cheat on someone." I was yelling now, cheating is my line in the sand. I can't stand a person who cheats.

"I never said it was okay, I said I did it." He got off the bed and walked towards me.

"Exactly. It wasn't okay. Cheating is never okay. If you wanted to be with someone else, do it. Break up with the girl instead of making her feel like an unwanted piece of shit okay?"

"Alissa, let me explain," He said walking towards me.

"No, I know enough." I walked out the door and down the steps. I walked out of his house and stood on the porch. I just screwed up everything with Calum. I leaned my back against the door and slid down. I put my head in my hands. I sat and thought for a while before getting up and walking to my car.

I drove home and walked up to my room. I laid in my bed and got out my phone. I wanted to text Calum and tell him I'm sorry. But I can't. I can't let him know that I even gave him a second thought. But it hurts like hell not being able to talk to him.