Emma Swan is brand new in town and immediately gets taken in my the most popular group of girls at her new high school. They're great friends to have, she knows, but she's also ridiculously drawn to the biggest outcast to walk the halls.
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"I'll wait here," Emma said when we got to the waiting room and I looked over at her with confusion. "You haven't talked to him in years, babe, it's a private thing. I'm here for you if you need me."
"Thank you, love," I said quietly, fighting my tears as I pulled her close for a kiss that comforted me in a way I'd never be able to explain to her. "Once I tell him about you I'll come get you. I always hoped you'd meet my brother."
"Go," she smiled reassuringly, wiping tears from my eyes with her thumbs. "I'll be here when you're ready."
I kissed her once more before letting her go, following a nurse to the room I'd been visiting for the past years. It looked the same as always, but this time he was awake and sitting up. I almost laughed at the way he was looking distrustful lyrics at his bowl of blue jello.
"They tell me that's food," I said a bit jokingly and he looked up. "But I can hunt down something else if you'd like."
"I'm sorry?" He said looking totally lost. "Do... do I know you?"
*Emma's POV*
"Let's go, Swan," Killian said gruffly when he came out not ten minutes later, holding his hand out to me. I took it despite my confusion, letting him pull me up and threading my fingers through his. "I-I want to take you out tonight. Think you're up for that?"
"Sure, babe," I agreed easily, stopping him when he started to lead us out and placing my hand on his cheek to make him look at me. "But what happened? Is Liam okay?"
"He's fine," he nodded once, avoiding my eyes at all costs. "I-I just r-r-really w-want to take out m-my g-girl."
"Shh," I tried to soothe him with a gentle kiss, his stutter worrying me. "Let's go out then, okay? Just you and me."
He nodded and pulled me close, hugging me tightly and turning his face into my hair. I just held him, unsure what was wrong but doing everything I could to soothe him the best I could. I let him keep me close as we walked home, breaking out a dress that was probably too much in hopes of lifting his spirits a bit.
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"Love, are you-" Killian started as he came out of the bathroom, stopping dead when he saw me. "Bloody hell, Swan, you look... words cannot describe your perfection."
"You clean up pretty well yourself," I said as my face flushed and I took his hand. "Shall we go?"
He looked like he might cry for a moment before tugging me into his arms and straight to his lips. It was a hungry and desperate kiss, like he would completely fall apart if his lips parted from mine for even a moment. I met him full force knowing he needed it, letting my nails dig into him as I pressed my body back into his. I knew how much he liked that, a groan of appreciation coming from low in his throat as he clutched me to him.
"I love you," he whispered breathlessly when we finally broke for air and I completely froze, making him pull away further with concern in his eyes. "Emma?"
"Thank you?" I said after a moment, the question in my voice coming mostly from the fact that my mind couldn't find anything better to say. "I mean... I-I don't..."
"Y-you don't... love me?" He asked in the most hurt tone, the space growing when he took his hands off me.
"No," I said quickly, trying frantically to take back my initial reaction. "You know how much I care about you, but saying I love you... it's not easy."
"I just did it," he snapped at me, causing me to actually flinch as he covered his hurt with anger.
"I know," I tried. "But it's different for you. I've never had someone say that to me, let alone make me feel like they meant it."
"What do I have to do then?" He yelled. "I work my ass off so we can have a place to be together, so you don't live in your car, and I do my best to show you how much I care about you! What else do you want?"
"Nothing!" I yelled back, my temper and my walls getting the best of me. "Its not you, it's just not that easy for me! Saying that is a big deal, I just have to think about it!"
"What's to think about?" He insisted. "Because if there's really a question in this, then I don't know what we're even doing in this relationship!"
About an hour later I found myself knocking on Ingrid's door with a bag of my stuff over my shoulder. I was still almost numb to it, and she didn't push me, just letting me up to my old room. I made myself busy setting things back up, refusing to let myself be one of those girls that falls apart when a guy breaks up with her... no matter how much I just wanted him to hold me while I cried.
*Killian's POV *
I couldn't believe I'd done that. I'd actually broken up with the girl I loved more than life itself. I wanted to take in back the moment it happened but she was already gone, and I missed her even more than those months she was in Boston. Even then she'd only been a call or text away, but now... now I'd lost her.
I knew it was difficult for her, and I knew why. She'd be brave enough to open up about herself to me despite everything, and now id pushed her away. After having my own brother not have a bloody clue who I was, her not being able to say she loved me just hit me all wrong. I hated myself more than I ever had, even after the accident. Truly hated myself.
I'd been alone for three years, so you'd think I'd be used to it, but when I met her... when I met Emma it was like I could breathe again. She had become the sun in the thunderstorm of my life, and now suddenly she was gone and everything was somehow worse. I wanted her back now more than anything, but it was too late.
It's been too long, I know, and I'm sorry. I could tell you all my issues, but Idon't want to make excuses. Just know I'm doing my best, and I'll try to do better. I'll get you the update as soon as I can, because I know after this you're all going to hate me. Later, loves!
