Only Time Can Tell

BROKEN

FILLER 9

BROKEN

BORUTO UZUMAKI

What....what the hell did I just do? I stop mid stride on the way home, my words rebounding endlessly in my mind. You're wrong, Sarada! You can move on, you did everything you could! I did everything wrong and I ended up ending someone's life! How can you ever expect me to change?! I killed Sai!!! The...the look on her face. It looked like I had hit her, like I had reached out and shattered her. I watched as her eyes filled with tears as I left. I'm....I'm done here. I can't do this. I can't. Sarada... How could I say- Sorry for annoying you like this...I won't do it again. My shoulders shook and I slapped myself. Snap out of it. You need to get home and sleep. Sleep idiot. It'll all make sense in the morning.

I opened the door of the house and began to tread lightly up to my room but stopped when I saw Himawari in the kitchen pouring herself some water. "Onii-chan..." She said sleepily. "What..." She rubbed her eyes. "Why are you crying, onii-chan?"

I touched my face and pulled away, surprised by the wetness. Am I crying? "G-Go back to bed Hima.." I say softly, turning back to the stairs and not looking back. How can you ever expect me to change?! I killed Sai!!!

The light of my dad's study was on. He must not have gone back to bed after training with me. He'll have bags under his eyes today. I saw the Shikamaru was in there with him, I watched as Shikamaru's eyes drifted off towards me, locking on me for a moment, his eyes showing the slightest of reactions and then blinked and looked back to my dad. Without a single word I opened the door to my room and closed it behind me. I crashed on top of my bed. Sorry for annoying you like this...I won't do it again. Why...did I say that?

I let my arm lay across my face, hiding my shame from the world. Sarada's face. She was holding Chikara in her arms, her hair laid perfectly messy, her glasses off revealing her beautiful black eyes. She stood there holding that baby...and I let my mind wander and imagine...I imagined that Chikara was her baby and that...that we were married. I slapped myself in the face again. I'm so stupid, how could I say that to her?! You're wrong Sarada! You can move on, you did everything you could! I did everything wrong-

"Shut up. Shut up. Shut up." I muttered to myself. My words repeated endlessly in my mind to torment me. I looked back on the moment that I broke Sarada's heart. When her hands tightened around her little brother, how her eyes had shone with tears, as she watched me leave, I know that I had broken her. I broke the most beautiful thing in the world. Stupid! I hit myself again, jamming the heels of my hands into my eyes wiping away tears. I did everything wrong- "Stupid!" I cry and roll over. My eyes widen when they fall on the picture of my squad. Konohamaru sensei holding Mitsuki and I together with Sarada looking all perfect in the middle. We were so young. We...hadn't been hurt yet.

"Do not give in to the easy. Live to travel the hard path...and be the strength for the weak. Smile, cry, laugh, live, die, and love." Have I failed you, Sai? Have I...after promising to myself that I would live out the life that you allowed me...have I broken my promises to you? "You have this chance...to live this life the best you can. Pursue happiness to the best of your ability. Make the best of the life that has been given to you. Cherish the time you have with your friends. Don't forget about any one of them...Make sure that she's always happy. Spread your light onto others, save them like you did me. You hold many more than one life in your hands. " Did I...after all I said...would I end up here? Hurting my friends? The person that I love? Did I hurt her?

Boruto! Her eyes swell with tears, her hand extended towards me, I watch as those tears fall to the earth, and with them her heart breaks like rain. Sorry for annoying you like this...I won't do it again.