Completing You

4. Reminiscing the Past

"Sometimes the right thing feels all wrong until it is over and done with"

-Alice Hoffman, Practical Magic

Chapter 4

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I stared at my phone debating on whether I should read the messages Andrew had left me. I knew I shouldn't even be debating on reading them. When I left home, I vowed never to even have contact with him again. I've been doing fine since I got here, but why now that I'm just lying on my bed do I have this ache in my heart as I stare at his name on the screen?

I sighed heavily as I pressed the delete button before putting my phone down on the bed side table.

"Sky, wake up. You still have work la-" Joey said as she barged into my room, but stopped when she saw my face. "What's wrong?" That's the thing about our friendship, we don't even have to say anything we know just by the look on our faces that something was up.

"I don't know" I tell her as I just stared at the ceiling. Joey moved to lie down beside me on my bed.

"Is it Andrew?"

I wanted to say no but I knew it would be a lie. I decided to be honest and that maybe by talking about it, I would be able to relieve some pain in my chest. "Yeah" I answer her.

"Are you still angry with him?" She wondered.

"So much. But I..." I stopped not wanting to admit how I felt.

"You what?" Joey was calm as she urged me to finish my sentence.

"I miss him" I admitted. I didn't even notice the tear coming to my eye, I just felt it fall on my cheek. I loved Andrew, let me correct that I still loved Andrew. He was there for me when my mom died and had to adjust to new life with my dad and his family. He knew my story. Actually thought he was the one.

Joey seemed like she wasn't in the slightest way shocked with my answer, it was as if she already knew, and I guess she did. "You were together for two years. It's okay to miss him and it's okay to be angry with him too. Before he came along, you had walls around that heart of yours to keep it safe from anyone who would add more pain to it... Andrew went through a lot for you to let him in, which is why all of us were shocked with what he did. He did something we all thought he would never do, especially to you. He was your first love, he's gonna be hard to get over. But know that I'll be with you as you go through the stages of moving on. First love never dies is what they all say, but I know that when you meet your true love, he's going to bury your first love alive"

I scooted closer to Joey to give her a hug "Thank you. You're absolutely the best" I pulled away and got on my feet "I have to get ready for work" I announced and made my way to my closet.

"Sky!" Joey called again just as I was grabbed by underwear and going to the bathroom.

"Hm?"

"Are you sure you're not going to give him another chance?" She asked me.

I didn't need to think about it as I shook my head "What he did was unforgivable. And I don't think I'll be able to trust him again after that"

She got up from my bed "Okay. You go and get ready for work. True love might be waiting at the coffee shop" she teased before leaving my room.

That somehow lighten up my mood. I guess having a crush helps... actually I don't think it's having a crush that helps, it's just Tyler. His happy energy is what helps, his smile, and laughter is so contagious that I forget all the bullshit in my life.