Escape. | (wroetojidebt)

•44• just give me some space.

Harry's POV~

I'm still heartbroken over what JJ did to me but I'm in love with him and I can't seem to let him go...

I don't want to let him go.

I want to hurt him but then I want to love him, my mind is so fucked up right now. It makes me sad that I am not cuddling him right now and now I just feel lonely.

lonely with my thoughts.

lonely with values that I keep.

lonely with memories that keeps replaying in my head.

lonely with my mind, soul and heart.

I felt tears roll down my eyes as I felt pain in my chest, the pain of heartache. I got up and went to look out of the window which was a dark night outside. I watched the stars how bright they twinkle, I see the moon just lightening up making the clouds transparent.

I sat by my window and just stared until I felt like I've calmed my strong feelings. The only question in actually asking myself is!

who was the man that JJ was fucking in bed?

or

why was that man fucking my boyfriend?

I just carried on looking out at the dark night sky until I see a body walking, I recognise that body... It's JJ, what was he doing wondering around at 5:30AM?

I opened my window a little to hear...

"Everything I do is a fuck up..."

"I wish I could go back in time and beat up myself for doing this to Harry!"

"Oh my gosh, the pain is unbearable, the heart ache is painful."

"I'm willing to fight for him, no matter how many times he pushes me away..."

I heard him take a big sigh and all of a sudden I hear my front door open before realising that I gave him my spare house key.

for fuck sake Harry.

JJ walked into my bedroom and saw that I was sitting by the window just staring out at the sky that I was admiring.

I turned my head to look at him, he wasn't drunk, he was just upset and his eyes were filled with tears... I wanted to go hug him but I wanted some space.

"JJ, what are you doing in my house?" I asked with no emotions in my voice whatsoever.

"Baby-" I cut him off.

"Don't baby me! It's Harry to you mister..." I said calmly but keeping my anger in.

"Harry, I can't sleep... Every time I close my eyes, I think about you! And it hurts that I can't cuddle with you or making you laugh when you are having a hard day! It hurts that I made a promise to you but I broke it! But out of everything single stupid things that I have done, I know deep down I would never hurt you!" JJ said as he started sobbing.

Tears were rolling down my eyes, I knew how much he loves me and he doesn't even need to show me because I can see it in his eyes.

It's even more painful that I'm pushing him away, I don't want to push him away! I want to love him and make him happy.

I seriously want to hug him right now but I don't have the guts to do it! He knows that I can't sleep at night sometimes.

I stood up and then walked towards him.

"I'll tell you the same thing I said before... just give me some space!" I said calmly.

I laid in my bed and just looked at the ceiling.

"Leave my house JJ! Let me have some space!" I said calmly trying not to lose my shit and do something stupid.

"Before I leave wanted to tell you what happened that night..!" He said.

"I don't want to hear it!" I said being stubborn.

"HOW THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE GOING TO GET THE TRUTH OR WHAT HAPPENED IF YOU KEEP PUSHING ME AWAY!" He yelled as tears was still falling from his eyes.

I turned around and looked at him, I took a big heavy sigh telling myself that I'm going to find out sooner or later.

"You have 10 minutes go!" I said laying in my side looking at him.

"When you told me that you was going to drinks and told me you was coming back, I told you that I'll wait for you... But suddenly Calfreezy came and he wanted me to go upstairs with him but I told him no, I have to stay here because I'm waiting for Harry. But he ignored me and still took me upstairs, he started sexually arousing me... I tried getting out of the room but he had locked it... He started undressing me and began thrusting himself into me... I remember his last words that he said to me you are going to cheat on Harry because you're mine. I told Calfreezy that i couldn't do this because Harry is waiting for me! He must have heard that you was coming to look for me and he planted his lips onto me." He said explaining what happened that night.

I didn't speak for a couple of seconds as I was trying to process and let everything sink in.

CALFREEZY FUCKED MY BOYFRIEND?!

WHY? I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING TO HIM!!

"I think I've heard enough, just leave JJ!" I said not sure whether to believe him or not.

"Harry, please believe me! I would never hurt you on purposely!" JJ cried.

"JUST LEAVE MY FUCKING HOUSE! JUST GIVE ME SOME SPACE, OKAY?" I cried in front of him.

I am such a mess.

Calfreezy, you better fucking, watch out mate!

don't touch my boyfriend!

the feeling of revenge comes in.

I watched JJ leave my house but suddenly I hear....

AN;

WHAT DID YOU THINK HARRY HEARD?
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