Escape. | (wroetojidebt)

•1• drowing in my thoughts.

•Harry's POV•

have you ever felt like you wasn't worth it anymore?

Yeah, I have and in fact all the time.

do you wish you could escape from problems hoping that they would fade away?

Yup, but it never damn works!

I am sitting here in my bedroom just looking out of the window feeling depressed as the rain falls down and I'm watching every drop hit the window.

The grey clouds makes me feel even more sad than I've already have been. I wish I could see the sunshine that vibrant light just shinning in my eyes till I'm almost blind.

I got up from my bed and just wondered around with my depressing thoughts just screaming at me.

why do you bother making yourself happy?

no one even cares about you.

I sighed as I knew the voice in my head was right.

Whenever I have a problem or something comes up, I'm the first to run away.

I just want to escape from here, I want to drive till one day an idea pops into my head and i know what I'm doing with my life.

But the irony of all that happening is me running from my problems that I, myself can not face.

All my family and friends put me down because they say that what you are doing now won't get your far in life.

I've been put down so much that I don't think I can ever climb back up that rope.

The rope that will get me and my head out of this hell hole, the pain is too much for me too handle.

I'm holding my head as I'm pulling the roots off my hair trying to get the pain out of my mind, I am trying to call for help but no one understands my pain so I just sit here on the floor beside my window crying.

Crying for all this pain to come out.

But the pain never leaves me. The voices in my head won't get out, my head is in a migraine pain.

I was just alone in this house, just me and my thoughts... They are eating me alive.

I go on my phone to see if anything is happy but all I see on my Twitter is.

stop doing YouTube w2s! No one even watches you.

no one cares about you.

go kill yourself, you aren't even worth it.

go back to Guernsey, where you belong.

you can't play Fifa, your shit at it.

your channel sucks ass. you can't upload for shit.

I just put my phone down and went to the bathroom to find a blade.

go do it, tell me how much you hate yourself.

i held the blade with my right hand as I was getting ready to cut my left wrists!

"This is for being alive!"

"This is more your fans not giving a single shit about you."

"This is for people that have let me down." I said as I slide the blade and cut my arm, I winced at the pain but the release of the blood felt good.

I cleaned up the blade and the cuts on my arm so no one notices that I've wounded myself.

i heard my phone going off and I saw the tweets.

leave Harry alone, just because he isnt good at Fifa doesn't mean you should be mean. I love it when he have a rage.

guys, leave my boy alone! Your jealous of his success.

Harry baby, don't worry! I got your back.

Ignore them, your Fifa videos are funny and let me tell you I'm shit at Fifa too.

Harry, ignore them! I love your content on YouTube! Your the reason why I'm still watching YouTube.

Harry, ignore those jealousy people! I love your videos! The rage on Fifa... THE STRUGGLE IS REAL.

I smiled as I felt happy that I had fans that were still supporting me no matter how terrible I am at something.

they don't care, they say it because they pity for you.

your not even funny, you ain't shit.

I laid flat on my bed here just drowning in my own thoughts.

I wish people knew what I was going through.

AN;

How was this guys?

I'm sorry if this was too depressing, to be honest it made me cry..

IM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE COMPLAINING THAT HARRY OR JJ NEVER UPLOADS... BITCH, I RATHER WAIT FOR THEM TO LOAD THAN TO HAVE A SHITTY QUALITY VIDEO...

BEING A WELL KNOWN YOUTUBER ISNT FREAKING EASY...

BUT THOSE PEOPLE ARE JEALOUS AND HALF OF THEM THEY CANT EVEN SPELL FOR SHIT.

Harry and JJ... Your my boo's❤️