social casualties | 5sos au

Chapter 26 {By Me}

My phone buzzed. I checked it and it was Rylie telling me that she wasn't coming to school tomorrow. Something is up with her. I can tell.

Me: you okay?

Rylie: no but it's okay

Me: what's wrong?

Rylie: just Calum and Blake and stuff, it's fine

Me: anything else?

Rylie: that's it

Me: do you want me to stay home with you tomorrow?

Rylie: uh... no it's okay

Me: okay.. Ily

Rylie: ilyt

Me: gn best friend

I sigh and set my phone back down. I just wish she would feel better. Rylie doesn't deserve this shit. She's such a good person and now all of this pain is just dropping down on her. Why? Why not someone else? Someone who deserves it like a murderer or something. I just don't get life sometimes.

There was a ding on my window and it scared the shit out of me. It happened again and then I realized it was someone throwing rocks at my window.

I looked the time... Who the fuck is here at midnight? I sighed again and stood up cautiously. Hopefully I don't die.

I smiled when I saw Luke waving his arms to get my attention. I opened the window and quietly yelled, "What are you doing?"

"I missed you!" He smiled and threw a rock again. I dodged it and said, "We saw each other a few hours ago. Plus, my mom is going to see you!"

"Better let me in then!" I rolled my eyes and quietly snuck down the stairs and outside to the backyard. He smiled and wrapped his arms around me. I laid my head on his chest and happily sighed.

"Not saying that it's a bad thing, but why are you even here?" I asked Luke.

"Well, Michael went to Rylie's to confess his undying love for her."

"Are you serious?!" I asked, surprised and confused at the same time. Michael told me that he was in love with Rylie, but he did not seem like the guy that would just go to a girl's house at midnight... Luke seemed like that, so did Ashton. Except, Ashton's would be a guy. Aw, that's so cute.

"Yeah, he's there right now." Luke said. I sighed again and looked up at him. He pulled a piece of hair behind my ear, "You are so beautiful." I rolled my eyes and said, "Why are you sucking up?"

"Can't I just tell my girlfriend that she's beautiful?"

"Luke." I said stubbornly.

"I... We need to to talk." He pulled away from me and took both of my hands, "So, my mom got a call today from a number she didn't know. It was actually One Direction's publicist, asking if we would want to go on tour with them."

"Luke, that's amazing!" I hugged him and then came into realization that he would be leaving me.

"Yeah, but-" Luke said before I cute him off, "I know, you're leaving. But, don't feel bad, okay? This is your dream."

"I won't go if you don't want me to."

"Luke, I can't hold you back. This I s your chance. It's One Direction!" I (fake) laughed and hugged him again, "I'm so... proud of you." I told him.

Luke's POV

What was I supposed to say? I can't just leave her here. Neptune... I loved Neptune. But, she didn't know that. I hadn't told her yet. I was going to and then we found out about the tour. Everything is happening so fast. I'm leaving in two days. We're all leaving in two days. Me, Ashton, Calum, Michael. None of us expected this. We didn't even know we had fans.

"Well, you're gonna need your sleep if you're going on tour with One Direction." Neptune told me as she rested her hand on my arm.

"Can't I just stay here?" I was really hoping she'd say yes so I could spend more time with her.

"Luke, I don't think that'd be the best idea." She sighed.

"Oh... okay. Well, um... I have no idea how to say this. I can't leave you, Neptune." I was this close to crying, but I kept it in. For her.

"I don't want you to go, either. I don't want any of you guys to go. But, we're going to have to say goodbye sometime."

"What if I don't want to?"

"Luke, of course you want to. You're going on tour! Pursuing your dreams. Why should I be the one to stop you?"

"I, I..." I trailed off. I have no idea what to do. She's my everything. I can't just up and leave her. Or Rylie. Or anyone here. My family, my friends. I can't do this!

"Goodbye, Luke." She kissed my cheek and turned around to go back inside. I watched her every move until she reached the back door and walked inside.

I started walking back home. What else was I supposed to do? I screamed. I screamed at the sky, at myself, at anyone that might hear me and help, "I'm never going to be alright. Nothing is going to be okay! I'm leaving the love of my life! For what?! One Direction?!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, but stopped when my chest started to feel tight.