Geneva- Fiercer

9: Seducing

I knew this isn't the type of me seducing here, but I just want to give myself a try na baka dahil nagkakakanyan siya cause in all things, he does the first move. I mean, the first moves like: kissing me, making love with me, seducing my neck that unfortunately undergo to forcing one.

Why wouldn't I give myself a try na ako naman ang unang kikilos, don't you think na baka magbago siya. That doesn't mean that I am not sweet on him- I am still like cooking his food, serving him or giving him a care- just not that affection part.

I saw him lying on the bed with these two arms on his forehead. He sounded so sleepy and so I slapped the door noisily for him to be awake and yes he got awake. He got irritated of the noise and did and he got up, sat on the bed and looked at me with his face.

"What's wrong with you?" he asked around.

Oh shocks, he's mad because I was too noisy. I slammed the door at magagalit na naman talaga ito. Naman! sana hindi ko na lang binagsak ang pinto. Pwede ko naman siyang akitin na nakahiga siya sa kama or climbed on his body?

"Sorry. I wake you up, nabagsak ko lang talaga. Sorry. Just go .. go back in sleeping." I can't even utter the words. Damn it.

I saw him shaking his head. "No. Not that. I mean what's with the dress, your clothes. Too daring?" He said it. Oh shit. I thought hindi niya mapapansin.

I looked at my dress. Honestly, it was too daring. This was Zach's gift para daw sa honeymoon namin but unfortunately wala namang nangyaring honeymoon because I ended up in the hospital. Kaya hindi ko masasabing honeymoon namin yung after 4 days pa kai nagtalik.

Hindi ko naisip na nadala ko pala ito sa mga bagahe ko ngayon. Kaya nagulat talaga ako when I saw this awhile ago. Total, parang magagamit ko na rin naman siya eh. Sana at sa ngayon.

"Ahh .. ano mainit kasi and parang fresh itong suotin." I smiled at him at humiga na rin sa kama. I saw him back to sleep kaya malakas na hininga ang aking pinakawalan. Kahit kailan di talaga ako magaling umarte.

The room is filled with silent and a percent noise of my heartbeat. Dinig na dinig ko ang kabog ng aking dibdib. Kung itutuloy ko ba o hindi na lang, kung itutuloy ko eh paano at kung hindi naman parang isang malaking kawalan naman ito sa akin.

I heard him snore. Mahimbing na itong natutulog baka kung gisingin ko pa ay magalit na naman siya. Pero bahala na. I moved near to his place and caressed his hair and combed it by my hand. I laid right next to his. Nakatalikod siya kaya hindi ko alam kung nagising ko ba siya o hindi.

Then I flowed my hand from his ears and tickled it a little, then down to his neck that only my nail is touching his neck part. Kung ako ang gaganituhin, tiyak makikiliti ako o baka nga magising pa. But there was no movement of him.

I crawled down my touch to his spine, stopped there and made this massage on his back. Hindi pa rin siya nagigising. Parang hindi talaga effective ang ginagawa ko. Kaya napilitan akong ideretso ang aking mga kamay sa kanya at minasahe iyon ng konti.

Narinig kong napaungol siya. Effective na siguro. Kaya mas binilisan ko pa ang pagmasahe niyon kaya napadilat siya at napatingin sa akin.

"What now Gev?" he asked.

"Can we?" I never hesitated to ask.

He sighed. Then he was back on his sleeping position. "Not now. I am not on the mood. I want to sleep."

I sighed back. "Ok. Sorry."

Unaccomplished.