Changing Me

All Alone

As I stood in the hospital waiting room I thought about all the things I would have to do. The things for the funeral. Why now? Why her she was the only person i could depend on until now. Now I only have myself to depend on. I always wandered what would happen if she died. My only living relative died today. Goodbye Great Aunt Aggie hello foster care.

***the day of the funeral***

She knew a lot of people. I met a couple of random people that she met in bars, her dealer, the strange woman who lived across the street. but then a lady walked in and walked straight to me like she knew me. She was tall and skinny with brown curly hair and she was dragging two kids behind her. She said "hello i am Shannon your new foster parent". I hadn't even met my social worker and there is a woman walking in from who knows where telling me to call her my parent. Very Funny. How about never. Instead of making a scene i politely said " i think there is a misunderstanding I haven't even met my social worker yet." She said they said it was an emergency case where they had to place me automatically into her custody.

i called my social worker and she said that i was placed in her custody cause its a emergency situation. My great aunt died give me some time. she said that i didn't have a choice that i had to go with her. I didn't know what to do. I had never had a foster parent before, i was placed right into my aunts custody as soon as i was found.

Shannon took me to get my things, as soon as i went in the house i just stood there. It felt so strange to be in there without my aunt. what was i gonna do when i got to my new house. I went to my old room and grabbed all of my clothes and a picture of my aunt and took it to the car and told Shannon i would be right out. I went to the attic and picked up the box. i took it out to the car. Shannon looked at it with a curious look on her face. then she shook her head and said "ready" and got into the car. 

As she drove me to my new house she started talking about her family and her past. She said that she was a cheerleader and a prom queen but then she met Derek her husband and then she realized that something needed to change. So she quit the squad and focused on her studies and life choices. then her mom died and her dad left so she was left all alone at 17. That's why she said that she would take me in so i wouldn't be all alone. she told me she was a therapist and she volunteered at a crisis center.