slow down.

= chapter 21 =

I'm in this crazy state of shock that I can't seem to get over. She's cheating on me. What did I do wrong? When did things go wrong? What happened? Who is he? How long has he been with her? I have so many questions that don't have any answers. I look around my room. Its dark and dreary outside. Its raining and windy. All of the lights in my room are turned off. I'm lifeless. I haven't left my room for two days. I've barely eaten. Maybe I'm just being a pussy. Whatever it is, I'm done.

I'm done feeling sorry for myself.

I get up and walk to the bathroom. My finger flips the switch and the light makes my eyes crease from not seeing the light for a couple days. My hands rest on both ends of the sink. Me, looking at myself in the mirror contemplating what has happened, what I'm doing, and what I should do. My left hand brushes through my hair and my right hands turns on the sink faucets. The water trickles about my fingers and I wipe my oversized hands over my face then I shave and I already feel refreshed. Rubbing my eyes I walk out of the bathroom back into my room and put on my black skinny jeans and a white T-shirt. I slip my black beanie over my head and pull it back up slightly, pulling the hair out of my face. I sit on the corner of my bed pulling my dark brown Docker boots over my sock covered feet.

Liam, my best friend rings my phone and I pick it up sliding my finger across the screen to answer.

"Hey mate! Are you okay? You been like an antisocial shadow the past couple of days."

"Yea I guess I'm fine, its nothing."

"Its obviously not nothing, I'm not that much of a dumb ass, dumb ass!" I hear her him chuckle through the call.

"Its just something that happened with Ariel."

"Ok well it seems like you're trying to get over it but that's not good enough. Tonight is Nialls party so you need to get your shit together, mate, like fast. Right so I'm gonna come pick you up and take you right now."

"Actually I don't think I'm going to g-"

"Right, I'll be there in a couple minutes. Be ready!"

He carries his promise through and within minutes he's at my house and I hop into his car to go to the party. My phone won't stop buzzing from texts from her. I look at my phone and turn it off, ignoring whatever the hell she had the fucking nerve to say.

***Ariel's POV***

Lou and I had another slewpover last night, too and watched movies until 5 in the morning so he just decided to stay over. I slept on the one corner of the couch and he slept on the other. I look at the time and we seriously slept in. I've never slept in this late. The black numbers on my phone say 1:00pm.

I run over to wake up Lou but being the clumsy ass I am, I trip over the pillow on the ground, waking him up. That wasn't what I planned but at least it woke him.

Besides the point. I am really worried. Harry hasn't been texting me back for a while and its making me sad, angry, worried, and frankly really pissed off all at once. But I have grown a relationship with Niall too and even if Harry doesn't answer me I'm still going to the party, and Lou's coming with. I know it wouldn't bother Harry since he obviously could give less of a shit about me. He's just like every other guy. All he wanted was sex and as soon as he got it he left me behind like I was nothing.

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