slow down.

= chapter 13 =

His lips pull away and brush against mine to tempt me. Its working. The feeling of knowing that I'm at his house. In his room. While he's kissing me and no other girl in the world is in my position right now makes me blush and smile as he puts his forehead against mine. Our noses touch. He's turned of the lights but opened the shades. The moonlight shines perfectly against his jaw line and makes his green eyes and even brighter shade of green.

I lace my fingers through his and walk him to his bed. I lay him down with me. His body forms perfectly with mine.

I've never necessarily believed in fate. Harry's changed that about me. I've only known him for a short time but it feels like I've known him my whole life. He makes me feel like a better person.

He makes me feel like through all of that deep dark depression. That was caused by my father drama added onto regular teenage self-consciousness added onto an abusive boyfriend (now ex) there is a light at the end. Like there is finally a hand to reach down and pull me out of the endless well of depression.

At least that is what I've always imagined it as and compared it to. That I've fallen down a well of depression and have screamed and screamed for help. But, my voice is silent and no one can hear my screams.

Except for Harry. He's saved me. He heard my screams and threw the rope down the well for me and pulled me out. I can finally see the sunlight instead of darkness.

I just wish there was a way to express that to him.

But being fucking me I just can't find that way so I'm just going to have to love him until he doesn't want me anymore.

"Harry."

"Ariel."

"I don't know how to explain this to you. But ever since I've met you I feel like I've known you for years and years. I feel comfortable with you. I feel like puddy in your hands right now, for example."

"Ariel, my father left me too when I was little. It hurt so much I never thought I'd be able to get over it. Especially once my mum started to date Robin I felt like she was replacing my dad. But from how you've put it. It all makes sense. He hurt her and me and she deserves to be with someone who she loves and who treats her right. And you know?....I've never opened up like this to anyone before but I also feel like I can trust you and like I've known you for ages as well."

"I'm so happy you feel that way. I've just seen you around but every time I do I get butterflies and my heart feels fuzzy and my cheeks turn red and I smile like such a dork."

"Don't ever put yourself down. Your so beautiful. The fact that you don't know your beautiful is beautiful to me. I need you to see that Ari. I think I-"

"Did you just call me Ari?"

"Yea... is that a problem?"

"No, No sorry I'm being wierd its just since Peyton and Jake are out of the picture I'm not used to anyone but my mom calling me that. I like it though. I like you."

"Y-ye-yea I like you too! Goodnight Ari. Sweet dreams."

"Goodnight!" and with that I turned around, kissed him, and we presumed to spooning.

I wonder why he studdered.? Or what he was going to say before I cut him off.? Oh well, I'm sure its nothing to worry about. I think I love him but I don't know. It all seems to soon. Why am I even sleeping in the bed with him? This is moving way to fast. Its like a car going down a high way, covered in ice, in the middle of winter. Then suddenly your brake is jammed and you skidding further and further down the road to no end. Except I feel like if we keep moving this fast and if we don't un-jam the brake we are doomed to crash. Then we'd be over. I start to tear up at the thought.

We should definitely slow down for sure.

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Alright guys goodnight! I have school tomorrow and I've already stayed up to late buying midnight memories. WHICH IM IN LOVE WITH BTW. I rated and commented on it on Google Play.

Love you all,

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