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please don't leave me jimmy

Jimmy X the reader

You joined the Freakshow three years ago and Jimmy immediately took care of you. You were dating him for two years and that was amazing. He was so sweet with, always reassuring you, telling you that you were pretty and unique, that you were his and he would do anything for you, that he would never exchange you against a "normal" girl. You were in heaven, you never has been so happy of all your life. The others members of the show were a second family for you, they were so nice with you. When Ethel died, it was like losing your mother. It was painful but you stayed strong for Jimmy. You did everything you could to help him to overcome this unfair losing.

But everything started to change when Maggie joined the show. She was everything you wanted to be, she was beautiful and normal. You envied her so much, she was so lucky. Jimmy told you millions times that you were much better than her but his expression in his eyes every time he saw her was telling the contrary. You were jealous of her, Jimmy didn't look at you this way for a while. It was like he has found the perfection and you knew you couldn't fight against her, you didn't have the same weapons. Jimmy tried to tranquilize you but he was less convincing every day. Bette and Dot always told you that it was a passing fancy. He admired her because she was new and normal but he still loved you and soon he would realize that she meant nothing to him and that you were the truly one for him. You wanted to believe her but that was difficult, he was so distant these past few days. You even thought to break with to let him be with Maggie. All you wanted was is happiness and you didn't want to be hurt by a fake love and an unfaithful Jimmy. That was your fear: him cheating you with her and still pretending to love you. Bette and her sister repeated to you that he wasn't this type of guy and even if you believed her you still feared that. After all why would he stay with you if he could have a better girl.

You were talking and laughing with the twins when you realized that the show ended one hour sooner. You decided to go back to the trailer that you shared with Jimmy, he was probably worried about your absence. When you entered in the trailer you called his name but no one answered. He wasn't there. He was late sometimes because he helped to clean the big trailer. You waited for him thirty minutes, one hour, two hours. You were worried as hell. He was never late like that, what was he doing. You left you trailer and began to look for him. You met Eve and she asked you why you were outside so late. You explained that you were looking for Jimmy. Her bright smile faded and she had a concerned expression.

"The last time I saw him he was chatting with Maggie next to her trailer you should ask her where he is."

You nodded. A wave of fear submerged your mind. Was he cheating you? You tried to calm down thinking of what the twins told you and him telling you how much he loved you. When you were in front of the Maggie's door you heard some noises inside. You totally panicked. You wanted to know if your fear was rational or not so push the door. You couldn't believe what you saw. Jimmy was screwing Maggie. A tear rolled on your cheek as you began to run back to your trailer. You heard him calling your name. You locked the door of your trailer and threw yourself in the bed hiding your head in the pillow. You were crying so hard. You tried to focus on what you should do. You didn't want to stay here next them. That was to much. You brushed your tears away, he broke you heart for sure but you were strong and you didn't want him to know what he has done to your heart. You took your bags and packed your things ripping all the photos of him and you that you found. Your heard someone knocking loudly at the door. You ignored it and continue to pack. The knocks were louder. You knew that it was Jimmy and he wouldn't stop until you opened. In any case you had to opened the door to leave. You let him enter. He was about to tell you something when he saw the bags on the floor. His eyes widened.

"Y/N what are you doing?" You knew that he was about to cry because his voice was shaking.

"That's obvious, I am leaving." You didn't look at him as you put some of your clothes in a bag. Your voice was cold, emotionless. You didn't want to show him how much he hurt you.

"No, Y/N, please stay." he was weeping "Please stay, I beg you, I know I messed up but I love you, what will I do without you?"

"I don't know Jimmy, this is not my problem anymore. You should ask Maggie. But to be honest I doubt that she will be able to love you like I do" You knew that what you were telling to him was hurting him but you wanted him to suffer as much as you did. "You and I we had a story but you threw it all away to fuck her. I didn't imagine that it was what you wanted" he was crying hard.

"This is not what I wanted, I want you, I love you. Please believe me Y/N you're my everything. Without I am nothing, I'm empty, you complete me. I need you. Please stay. I know that you will not forgive me easily but please stay, let me fix everything, let me show how I love you." You wanted to hug him, to kiss him but you couldn't seeing him hurt you too much. You took your bags and walked to your car. He froze and looked at you leaving. As you were getting in your car, you felt him grabbing you arm.

"Leave me alone Jimmy, I don't want to see again."

"Please" he begged "Stay" you pushed him away softly. "I love you don't you care." you looked at him in the eyes and said harshly

"I probably care more than you. Between us I am not the cheater. Now leave me alone, I told you I don't want to see. If you really need someone you should go in Maggie's trailer, you certainly need her more than me."

As you entered in your car and drove away, you heard him calling you name and screaming he was loving you so hard. Tears rolled on your cheeks, that was the most difficult decision of your life, you loved him but you couldn't stay after that.