Til I Forget About You

Chapter Five

*Dani's POV*

I sat on the couch with my dad and watched some weird show. At about 5:30, the doorbell rang. I used all the energy I had to get up and answer the door. I pulled it open and wiped my eyes to see who it was. "Kendall? What? Why-" he interupted me. "Just listen.." I did what he said and he picked up a guitar from my porch, outside of my view. I thought he told me to move on. He told me to get over him. Why is he back? My thoughts were interrupted when he sand these words-

I don't remember what we might have said

I didn't bother to write it down anyhow

All of the memories spun like a web

And I can't get out get out get out

I gave everything I got not to lose you

We chose to say goodbye but I choose you, I choose you

And I keep building walls but you're always in my mind

I won't let them fall down

I'm tired can we give up the art of moving on

Because it keeps me up all night...

I just looked at him. I cannot believe him. Ya know, it's really rude to mess with a girl's emotions. He told me to get over him and I can't believe I'm saying this, but, I did. Singing me some little song isn't gonna make me instantly forgive you this time. "Kendall, I-" he interrupted me again.

"Dani, please, I know what I said, but I still love you. I've been trying to get over you and move on. The thing is, I can't. No matter what I do, or how much I convince myself I'm never gonna see you again, I can't get over you. I have nights where I just can't go to sleep because of the thought of loosing you. I know we have only known each other for about 4 or 5 months, but I just don't think I could live without you. You are my everything, my whole world. I understand if you decide to slam this door in my face. Just know that if you do, I'm missing out on my other half, and my world will be crushed. I got the part, Dani.. I just still can't let you go..." I just glared at him. He was making me really upset. I was about to yell at him but I knew the whole world would hear me, or at least my whole house. "Dani is everything okay?" I heard my dad call. "Yeah dad, one sec." I walked out side and shut the door. I took a deep breath and looked up to find his desperate eyes. I didn't look at them. I looked at the ground. I had lost my focus. I looked up and then just said it plainly. "I didn't shut the door in your face because I care about you." I looked in his eyes. I could tell he was about to hug me. "But I'm not taking you back." I looked in his eyes and couldn't handle it. I opened the door. "Dani-" I did shut it in his face. I leaned against the back of the door. I could hear him, faintly, "Dani! Dani what? Why are you doing this? We can still.." I began crying. I cried and cried and I heard his voice fade away. My family didn't come to me, thankfully. My dad knew better. I figured Kendall was gone so I cried even harder. I was alone, so who cares. I was really scared when I heard light strumming from the other side of the door. I thought he was gone. Now I knew he had heard everything. I was really embarrassed but had nothing to hide now. He wasn't playing anything in particular... I don't think. I leaned my head back against the door and slid down. It was as if I was put in a trance when he started singing.

Let's give it a rest 'cause I don't wanna fight

Let's clean up this mess before it ends tonight

I could've kissed your hand and tried to walk away

But I don't like to reminisce like this

Anymore than you do, Anymore than you do

Everything will be just fine this time

Everything will be just fine this time

What do I have to say to make you feel alright?

Everything will be just fine this time

He got quieter and I heard him put his guitar away, and stood up to leave. I swung the door open. "Wait" He turned around. Time for my speech. I took a deep breath.

"Kendall, when we left that night. I cried, more than I ever had before. I cried SO hard. Then after I had no more tears left, I decided I was done, for good. I wasn't going to cry anymore. I was gonna totally forget. I promised myself." "And I promised you I would never forget." I just looked at him. "I know, and you didn't even try, that's what held you back. It was your promise. Kendall, I do still love you. But you are going to have to live in LA now, and I have to live with my dad back in San Diego. I'm really sorry Kendall, it just doesn't work." "I'll visit you every weekend." "Kendall, stop making promises you can't keep." "No, I can do it. It's only 2 hours! I drove 45 minutes alone in the car thinking about how in the world to do this and what to say, just to get here. I can do an hour and 15 more." I smiled a little. He did go through a lot just for this. He looked excited. "You smiled." I smiled even bigger, then let it go. "No Kendall." I got upset again. "I can't do this. I will be waiting at your house each week and you will have something come up and I'll say I understand when I'm really just even more hurt then when I thought we were over." He looked really sad. "But that-" "I am really sorry Kendall, but no." I turned around to close the door and I felt him grab me and turn me around. He kissed me. I was really confused, but with all these emotions I didn't know what to do. I did what felt right, and I kissed him back. I realized what I was doing and pulled out crying. "WHY KENDALL?! Why do you do this to me? You are so confusing! I love you, I'm leaving, I'm leaving early so goodbye, psych, I love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you, goodbye, kiss me I love you." He looked really hurt. He went to hug me and I pushed him. "I-I'm so sorry Dani. This is just really complicated and I do love you, please don't leave me." "Me don't leave you? I am pretty sure you're the one leaving, in case you forgot we don't live here." I slammed the door in his face.. again.