Fate and coincidents (Joshaya)

Chapter 6

Josh pov

It has been two days, two days of sitting with Maya. Two days of the knowledge that she might not wake up. Two days, she was still alive and the pain was still unbearable. I was so sure that I saw her move her eyelids this morning. I probably just made it up but it felt so real, like she was going to wake up and look me in the eyes, so that I could finally tell her that I loved her.

Riley hadn't left her side, and I was thankful for that. I didn't have to go through this alone. I had told Katie and Shawn. I told them everything, they deserved to know. When they first came here they were just worried. They didn't think so much about how or why it had happened. They just wanted Maya to be alright. But the time went and they calmed enough to ask. It was painful for me to tell them. The guilt burning in my chest, but I didn't cry. I was going to be strong. I had to be strong for Maya. She deserved it. They weren't mad. They weren't even disappointed in me. They were thankful. It made me sick to my stomach, if I hadn't hurt her, she wouldn't have run away. But I did, and there was no going back now.

I hadn't left this hospital, I barley even left her room. Cory had gone home yesterday to get clothes for Riley and he had grabbed some for me too. Riley knew, she understood. Cory, Topanga and everyone else thought I just stayed because I thought I had too. I couldn't tell them that I loved her, not until I had told her. Riley had always known I think. I didn't really hide it anymore, especially not now.

The doctors come and go. They never tell us anything and it's driving me crazy. I want to know. Not knowing is the worst part of it all. I already feel powerless. How am I supposed to stay calm if they can't even tell me if she's getting worse or better?

I was sitting beside Maya, trying to read her and Riley a story. I don't know why I wanted to do that but it calmed my niece and that made me feel a little bit better. I read Sleeping Beauty ironic enough. I thought that if Maya could hear then she might find it funny. While I was reading a nurse came in.

"I have some test results." She said, not even flinching when me and Riley basically flied over to her and waited impatiently while she read through the papers.

"Her heartbeat is getting stronger, that is a good thing. Her blood sugar is normal and everything is looking fine. You already know that she's in a coma. Sadly we don't know exactly why she hasn't woken up yet. We will just have to wait and see what happens." She said and walked out before neither Riley nor I could ask any questions. Riley sighed and sat down once again. I had been trying to take care of her these past days but it wasn't easy. Riley didn't want to eat and she hadn't showered in a while. I understood why but it was hard to see her break down like this.

"Riley, I think you maybe should get something to eat." I said while looking her in the eyes.

"But Maya..." She started.

"I will watch her and the last thing Maya would want is you to get sick." She looked me in the eyes and knew I was right. With Maya, Riley's personal protector and lifeguard in a coma I had started to take care of my niece more. She needed it.

"Okay, maybe I should go and see if I can find mom..." She mumbled while walking out of the room with her arms crossed over her chest, leaving me alone with Maya.

I once again sat down next to Maya. I took her hand and held it gentle, not wanting to risk her getting hurt.

"Maya, it's me, Josh. I don't know if you can hear me or not but... We need you. I need you Maya. Please keep fighting." I let her hand down and looked at her beautiful face before I leaned in and kissed her on the forehead.

"I love you." I said and just as I was about to get up and sit in the chair next to the wall, I felt something on my wrist. I looked down to see Maya holding my hand. She was awake.