Abducted// MGC

2.6

I hesitantly stood in front of the police department door, debating whether or not I was ready to walk in. It was eating me alive, the guilt, the nightmares, the pain, the hurt, the everything. I couldn't stand the feeling of some one else suffering because of me, even if he hurt me first.

I inhaled deeply and entered, instantly knowing that what I was doing was for the best for me, and for Victor.

"Hi, I'm here to see Officer Rob" I said to the lady at the front desk.

"Okay, you know where his office is, right?" She asked.

"Yeah, thank you" I said.

You know that churning you get in your stomach and the heat that takes over your face when you see everyone staring at you? That's what I felt every time I walked in this station. I felt like an alien and everyone just looked at me with wide eyes and sympathy.

I felt my stomach get more nervous butterflies, scared to knock on Rob's door. But I had to do this, there was no going back now. I knocked and right after I heard a slight "come in" from the other side of the door. I walked in and Rob half smiled when he saw me.

"Hey there Willow, what's up?" He said.

"I've come to a decision about Victor's charges" I said.

"Come sit" he said. I nodded and walked over to the chair that was opposite from his side of the desk, and sat down.

"I don't want to press charges for rape" I said.

"Willow-"

"I don't want to be talked out of this" I said. "I thought a lot about this over the past few days" I added.

"I have a question. Did you think about getting that nose piercing?" He asked.

"Not really, spur of the moment, why?" I asked.

"Do you like it?" He asked.

"Yeah, it's cute, what does this have to do with the rape charges?" I asked.

"If you didn't really think about the nose piercing, but did it, and you're satisfied, shouldn't you just apply that to this situation with the charges? You said you've been thinking about it for the past few days, but the piercing was spur of the moment. What do you feel in this moment right now about the charges?" He asked.

"You have a point but this is differe-"

"Of course this is different, but what would you have done if your parents weren't in your way?" He asked. I paused before I said the truth.

"Pressed charges" I admitted.

"Exactly" he said. "You're over 18, so you can make these decisions by yourself but I just want you to sleep at night knowing that you did the right thing" he added.

"I can't sleep at night knowing Victor is suffering because of me. He's in jail because of me" I said.

"It's not because of you. He's the one who kidnapped you, beat you, raped you, beat Michael and Luke and kidnapped them too. You don't have any fault in this Willow" he said

"I just-... please, let me do this" I said.

"Okay" he sighed.

"Thank you" I said.
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I got out of my shower and dried off. I used a solution to clean my nose piercing and my ears. I brushed my hair, and smiled at the red ends.

That was the first smile I've had in a while.

Ever since we got out of that place, I haven't been myself. Nothing feels the same anymore and it never will. I hate the constant attention and pity and everyone treating me like an extremely fragile piece of glass. I haven't even gone back to school yet because I'm scared of the sympathy.

I left the bathroom and went to my bedroom and closed the door behind me. I jumped once I saw Michael sitting on my bed.

"You startled me" I said.

"I'm sorry" he muttered.

"What's up?" I asked sitting next to him.

"We have to talk" he said.

"About?" I asked. He hesitated to speak, trying to find the right sentence to say. "Did I do something?" I asked.

"No, I just-.." he stopped in his tracks. "What are we?" He asked. I shrugged my shoulders at the question and ran my hand through my hair.

"I dunno" I said. "What are you and Luke?" I asked.

"I dunno" he said. I frowned a little and mentally debated whether or not to ask him if he still had feelings for Luke. The response could either break my heart or break Luke's heart.

"Do you have feelings for Luke?" I asked.

"I don't know, not really" he shrugged.

"Then it sounds like that's something you have to figure out yourself" I said.

"Yeah" he sighed. "But I do love you Willow. I don't know what I feel for Luke but I know what I feel for you is real" he said.

"I know you do, I love you too" I said. He smiled and leaned in to kiss me, but I backed away.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"I don't think we should do that" I said.

"Why?" He asked.

"Just figure out what you feel first" I said.

"But I just said I have feelings for you, I love you Willow-"

"But you still feel something for Luke and I don't want to be in a one sided relationship" I said. He sighed and got up, heading towards the door.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"Back to my room" he said.

"Can you stay tonight?" I asked.

"I'm sorry, not tonight" he said exiting and closing the door behind him.

I shut my eyes as they welled with tears, letting the hurt rush over me. Letting the regret take its course.

Why am I such a fuck up?
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I honestly wish Willow was real so I could hug her, poor honey :-(

Have you had your first kiss? I have, it was really cute, my boyfriend at the time and I were at an amusement park and kissed in front of a little fountain, it was adorable but kinda cringe worthy too lmao

Love you guys so much and don't be a silent reader
Xoxo,
Alyssa