Torn and frayed

Chapter Nine

I woke up to the sound of my alarm again. Great first day of school... I got up rushing to the shower as I don't want to be late even though I start school at 9:00AM and its 7:30AM. I jump out of the shower rapping a towel round my hair then grabbed another one for my body and walked to my wardrobe. I decided to wear something casual but cute so I chucked on a black skater skirt, a long sleeve white crop top and my white vans. I grabbed my white backpack from Forever 21 and chucked my pencil case in there along with two notepads. I lob my packed bag onto my bed.

I do my casual makeup, concealer, foundation, powder, mascara and a nude lipstick. I then grab a small makeup bag throwing in some essentials and put it in my bag, I just brush through my hair as its naturally straight. I then put my spare hairbrush in my bag and chuck that over my shoulder before grabbing my phone and earphones. I head to Lucy's room noticing she is ready for school but she was still laying on her bed laughing to someone on the phone.

"I'll be downstairs in a minute babe" She said looking at me then having to explain to the person on the phone that she was talking to me not them, I nodded while laughing then strolled downstairs. I placed some bread in the toaster. Once they were toasted I spread Nutella on them and handed one to Lucy when she came downstairs.

"Who was that?" I said winking.

"Oh it's just Beau" She replied smiling slightly. I nudged her in the arm doing the typical 'oooooo' thing that every sister does. We grabbed our bags and skipped towards the door but was stopped by mum who was eager to take a picture of us both, so we done funny poses then a nice one which I actually liked so I asked her to send it to me before posting it to Instagram and captioning it 'My gorgeous sister and I ready for school (:<3' I kissed mum goodbye and took the money she offered us for lunch while thanking her.

"Luc, I am so nervous. I can't do it" I stopped and dropped my bag on the floor as I saw the school up ahead.

"Kat, you can do it. It's a fresh year and you won't be on your own I promise. You have me, and I won't be leaving you" She explained. Even that didn't give me confidence and I was still tearing up. "I will be honest with you, I'm nervous as well ok Kat. We can get through this together". That reassured me so I picked up my bag and carried on walking. Once we reached the school gate we both looked at each other and stepped into the school premises in sync.

"Hello, you must be the new students?" The office lady asked. We both nod and then Lucy introduces us both while I awkwardly smile. "Here are your planners, timetables and locker combinations. If you need anything I will always be here as it's my job" She joked and we both laugh and thank us before heading to our locker following the given directions. Thankfully, we have our lockers next to each other. I take of my grey jacket that I chucked on and placed it in my locker as it was a hot day today. Lucy walked me to my form class which I was so thankful for.

"Meet me at the lockers at break or just text me what you're doing. Don't be shy, you're an amazing girl Katie" That made me smile. I thank Lucy and head into my form room and awkwardly walked to the teacher who looked half awake at the computer. I interrupt his track of thoughts and introduce myself. He introduced me to the class and there were many different reactions. The girls sitting at the front smiled and waved in which I returned. The girls in the back corner just smiled and carried on their conversation they were having which sounded like a catch up session. I laughed to myself at how they were acting, it was so cute. I then look to the right which was where all the boys were huddled together nudging each other and making little comments like 'Oh fresh meat' and 'She's hot' I blushed at the comments making me look down as I didn't want to embarrass myself on the first day. Sir pointed me to the only seat which was available and that was next to a really hot guy who smirked then he spun around to fist bump his mates after realising I was sitting next to him.

"Hi, I'm Kane" Introduced the guy sitting next to me, I give him a smile and take out my planner as I realise everyone has there's. The boys went on to talk about the usual thing boys do, parties, girls and soccer. "So what class have you got first?" He asked grabbing my planner and opening the page to where my timetable was stuck on. "Oh shit, she's in my first lesson" He shouted turning to the boys, I laugh as the teacher told him of for his choice of language.

"Guess I'm stuck with you then ay" I roll my eyes then smiled.

"Oh, I'm not that bad am I?" He pulled a fake sad face then nudged me in his arm. The bell rang and everyone packed their bags. The girls who sat at the front walked over to me and hugged me introducing themselves.

"It was nice to meet you all, bye" I smile as I walk out with Kane. First lesson was English, great. Kane and I arrived to class and we were the first as it was close to our form. Kane entered the room and I followed.

"This is Katie, she's new." He approached the teacher and introduced me. I smile and shake the teachers hand.

"I'm Mr Hodges, nice to meet you. Kane, she can sit next to you" He said. I smiled and walked to the back of the class following Kane to his seat. We spoke about general things like how many siblings we have and I told him about moving here from London.

"Your accent is so hot let alone your face" He blushed. I give him a kiss on the cheek which was my thank you, oh my gosh why did I do that. We both end up laughing it off and that ended up to crying with laughter. Half hour into the lesson a boy came barging into class with a McDonalds bag in his hands, I laugh and take no notice of who it was.

"Luke, why are you late?!" The teacher sounded angry,

"Oh I wanted a burger, sorry." The boy spoke. My head shot up as I recognised the name and voice. Luke Brooks! I feel my face burn and went back to my work hoping he wouldn't recognize me. I hear the chair next to me be dragged out from the table. My head turnt then I instantly regretted turning it. "No way" His mouth dropped. I laugh and do a small wave.

"Yeh she's hot isn't she, she's British as well Luke. Her names Kate, Katie I mean, sorry." He rushed his words sounding territorial.

"Kane I know; I've already met her" Luke laughed and shot a glare at him. I felt like you could cut the tension with a blunt knife. I can feel my face burning right now and I lost track of my breathing making me panic even more. I grab my stuff and chuck it in my bag then ran out the room. It was horrible because I sat at the back and had to make my way to the front to get out, but I had to get out... I had everyone's eyes on me and the teacher asking me where I was going but I couldn't respond, I just ran down the hallway and out of the school doors.

I unlocked the front door and ran to my room slamming the door behind me and sliding down it. I began crying and started pulling at my hair.

"WHY?! WHY ME?!" I began screaming at the top of my lungs. Nobody was home thank goodness. I chucked my bag off of my back and started punching the walls in anger. I can't cope. My phone started buzzing but I ignored it and went to the unpacked boxes in the corner of my room I started chucking everything out of them which caused a huge mess but I didn't care. I found what I was looking for and ran to my bathroom locking the door behind me, even though nobody was home, it made me feel safer. I slid up my sleeve and put the blade to my arm. As I was about to slid it across my arm, I heard banging at my door.

"KATIE OPEN THIS DOOR NOW" Lucy shouted, what? Why is she home. I hid my blade and rolled down the sleeve and unlocked the door. Lucy came barging in and hugged me tightly. "You didn't do anything did you" The worry on her face made me cry even harder.

"Why are you here, how did you know I was home?" I asked.

"Beaus brother, Luke, told me what happened in English. He said you had a panic attack. His mum struggles with them so he knows what they look like. He found me at break and told me. Katie he looked so worried, he looked around the entire school for a good hour and half, the moment you left class he began to look" She started crying. "I looked for 20 minutes and decided to come here and look for you. And now I'm here" She finished out of breath.

"I'm sorry" I reply.