Torn and frayed

Chapter Nineteen

I didn't wake up to Jai this morning, it felt strange. I sit up and stretch out my arms before heading to the curtains and pushing them open.

"Morning beautiful" Lucy appeared with a faint smile, I shot her a glare in return and entered my bathroom locking the door behind me. "Lucy, I'm so fucking sorry.

"I don't want to hear it Lucy, go away"

"Hear me out" She paused and I heard her slide down the door. "Jack. It's Jack." I heard her cry. I opened the door and walked her to my bed and I sat next to her. "I miss him so much Katie, it's so fucking hard to get over him. I was doing so well, I found Beau and I completely forgot about that scum. But I found the bracelet he got me, and his jumper and I broke. He done me so dirty and each time he apologised I convinced myself that it wasn't his intention to hurt me and I forgave him, I took him back, I loved him and I done everything in my power to keep the relationship going. I gave up on school work. I gave up on eating." She paused so she could catch her breath. She stood up and turnt to face me, she lifted up the oversized jumper she was wearing, I stared at her face refusing to look down as I was confused. "Kat please" She said gesturing me to look at her legs.

"Katie" I began to cry; I never knew Katie had done this. She dragged down her top and sat back down. I was speechless. I pulled her into a hug. She wiped her tears.

"Katie, I starved myself for weeks because I couldn't bring myself to eat. He had damaged me so much. He made me stop trusting people. I'm sorry I couldn't help you when you were being bullied but I had no strength, it wasn't because I had better priorities, I promise you. I smoked weed and drank alcohol to get rid of the pain, I thought it would help and at the time it did. And I'm sorry for being such a horrible bitch to you, it's just that I'm so jealous of how strong you are and how beautiful you are. You're all that I've ever wanted to be. Heartbreak physically hurts and it tears you apart" She fell to the floor clutching her chest. She began to scream.

"Lucy, please stay strong, for me. Look, he will remember how much you meant to him. He will remember that you loved him so much you forgot to love yourself. He will remember you when he wakes up, when he eats, when he goes to sleep. You will be his greatest nightmare. And you know what, he will be the one crying because you've moved onto someone so much better, you've got Beau. He will regret loosing you. For fuck sake, the boy lost such a gorgeous girl who done everything for him, you were always there for him when no one else was" Lucy stopped crying and looked up at me, "You stayed by his side even though he done you so bloody dirty. You tried to understand him when you were the one who needed him there. He will realize that you are the one for him. He didn't appreciate what he had. He left you for a cheap dirty slag. You have him on Instagram and snapchat right?" She nodded and mumbled a slight yes "So I bet he has been seeing how much happier you are. I bet he sat there feeling like he had been stabbed a million times in the heart because he gave up on you, he cheated on you. But you're done with him, you don't need him and he is going to realise that he fucked up big time" I smiled and gave her a kiss on the head. Beau pushed the door open making us both jump. He had a tear running down his cheek. "Holy shit Beau how long have you been there for"

"Sorry to eavesdrop but I heard it all." He wiped his eyes. Lucy got up and ran up to him. I stood up and left the room so they can have time but before I did they both pulled me into their hug. "I love you both so much, you have changed my life for the best. My brit bitches" We all laughed and contained the hug.

School went really quick today; it was the usual. Nothing happened. There were no arguments or anything. School was kind of quite. The boys were coming over tonight for Chinese and to watch some skins I'm guessing.

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