Complicated Love

Chapter 16

Hey loveliess ! Sorry i disappeared, things have been pretty busy at school and I needed to make sure I had this story on the right path... anywayy let me know what you think.. The song is Still Into You by Paramore.. I thought it kind of described Luke in this chapter.. I love this song too!

Luke's POV

"Jenny, I-"  I stopped because I didn't know how to put my thoughts together. I sighed and took a deep breathe.

"No, I mean I love you, of course I do, but I'm not in love with you. You're like my best friend, even after everything." I lied so easily, I almost laughed at myself. I tried to word it so I didn't insult her, cause that would not have ended nicely. She closed her eyes for a brief second and let out a  breathe through her nose. Then she opened her eyes again and said "For once, I'm glad. I don't mean to sound like a bitch but I am happy with Zac and this would've just complicated things for our friendship." 

Ouch. Not gonna lie, that one hurt. She was glad I wasn't in love with her. Wow. I guess I shouldn't be surprised, after everything she finally has a guy that treats her perfectly and she was right about it complicating things but I couldn't change the fact that I loved her. And no, not like a best friend, I was in love with her. But I wasn't EVER going to tell her that because I promised myself I would never hurt her again, and telling her that I still love her, will.

I nodded at her,"Yeah, I know what you mean." We both sat back down but with a little more space between us, I wanted to sit closer to her, but after what just happened, I decided against it. 

Jenny's POV

I let out a sigh of relief I didn't know I was holding. Luke just said he wasn't in love with me anymore. For a second, that stung because after spending a couple of years thinking a specific guy was the one for you and then hearing that he isn't, it hurt. But I was glad, I didn't love Luke anymore. I loved Zac. And if Luke were to say he loved me, I would have said sorry and walked away. I know it would've been a bitch move but I wouldn't have any other way. Of course Luke still means a lot to me, he was my first love, and I think I'll always love him, but I had moved on and I think we were both happier this way. 

We both sat down again though there was a lot more space between us now. I looked towards the lake and wondered why he had called me to hang out. Not that I didn't miss hanging out with him, but it had been months. It was extremely random of him, but I didn't want to ask just in case I came off as rude. 

"So what's new with your life?" He asked me. I looked towards him for a second and then looked back to where the moon was shining and thought about his question. What WAS new? Nothing. I was with Zac, my grades were good, my parents were the same as always. 

I shook my head lightly and said " Nothing really, the same as always. My parents are good, my grades are pretty good too. I'm getting a car for my birthday apparently." He gave a slight laugh and said "Let me guess, either a Ford Focus or a Chevy Cruze?" I looked at him, surprised. I didn't think he would remember my favorite cars, we had talked about that so long ago, it seemed like another lifetime. 

"Red Ford Focus." He smiled and shook his head,"Of course." I gave a slight laugh too and said "What about you? What's new?"

"Well not much either, I'm doing better in my classes, thankfully. Jess is coming home next week for winter break from NYU and well that's basically it." Jess was Luke's older sister, she moved to New York when she got accepted to NYU about 2 years ago, me and her always got along and I absolutely loved her. 

"She's coming back?!" He laughed and nodded. "Oh my god, that's great! I would love to see her. You have to tell her to call me when she gets here."

"Don't worry I will, she always asks about you when she calls, she still loves you like her own little sister." My hear melted at his words, I was so glad his sister still remembered me. After me and Luke broke up I cut ties with his family members because it was just too painful for me. 

"Aw, I always thought of her as an older sister. I love Jess." Me and Luke stayed talking by the lake for what seemed like hours. It was great to get that connection back with him, things with him were always simple.He was very easy to talk and the conversation just flowed naturally. I loved that about our friendship. 

"Well listen, I have to go, it's getting pretty late and my mom expects me home soon." I got up and starting getting the grass off my butt. He stood up too and said "Yeah, of course, here let me walk with you. It's late and I wouldn't want anything to happen to you." I smiled and said "Ok,cool, thanks." 

We walked to my house and Luke stayed in the front until I was safely inside. I went to take a shower and when I got out my phone was ringing. 

"Hello?"

"Hey princess, what are you up to?" I immediately recognized the voice of my boyfriend.

"Hey love, I just got home from the park and took a shower. How about you?"

"I just finished having dinner, you went to the park by yourself?"

"No, Luke called me and wanted to see if I could hang out with him for  a while. I hope it doesn't bother you." I wasn't completely sure how Zac felt about it, I knew it wasn't comfortable for him but as much as I love him, I wasn't going to stop talking to someone just because he didn't like them but I would try to make the situation less awkward.

"No that's fine. He is your friend, after all." I didn't sense any anger so I sighed in relief and got into to bed. I talked to Zac for like 3 hours and when I checked the clock before I fell asleep it was 3:30 AM.

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Thanks guys hope you enjoyed the chapter...It's basically just a filler chapter but you got to see a bit more of how Luke feels.... Leave comments, vote, share... anything you'd like.. it's very much appreciated..

see you soon loveliess,,

Jenny Xx