Complicated Love

Chapter 9

Hey guys sorry for disappearing for a while I had a lot on my mind this summer. Anyway Idk when I'll finish I was thinking of maybe doing another story I've been working on separately but I feel like I need to finish this one because it needs the closure it deserves. So I hope you can recommend it to your friends and give this story a chance. I promise I'll try to finish it as soon as possible. Also there's a picture of Mary on the side !

Enjoy Lovelies,

Jenny Xx

Jenny POV

As weeks started to go by I started to loose my train of thought in everything. I knew what was happening with Luke was wrong but I couldn't help it. I was drawn to him and I knew that if he needed me in his life it was because his girlfriend didn't make him as happy and he made everyone think she did. But even that wasn't the issue. The problem was I wasn't giving myself the value I deserved. Sure Luke treated me like a princess and our relationship was great but I wasn't his girlfriend. I was basically his side hoe and I deserved better than that. Every time me and him met after school, we would kiss for a bit and then we'd go our separate ways.

The last time, as I was walking away from him I saw her from afar and guilt hit me. I didn't know this girl but I sure as hell knew she didn't deserve to get cheated on. And that's when it hit me. I was helping a guy cheat on a girl that probably didn't deserve it. Now you're probably like "did you just realize he's cheating on her?" but the thing is I never really put things into perspective nor did I give it a name so I didn't realize what the situation really was. 

I looked at her one last time and realized what I needed to do. I may have fallen in love with him but I wasn't going to hurt someone else over this or hurt myself even more. As much as I knew it would hurt her if she knew ,it killed me seeing him with her at lunch, in the hallways. I loved him, he was my world and seeing him with someone else was like stabbing myself over and over again. It sounds cheesy but I promise that if you ever fall in love and the person isn't with, seeing them with someone else will kill you. 

I ran outside to the front and waited about 5 minutes until my dad picked me up. I got in the car and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Hey, how was school?" he asked. "It was fine dad, like always." He chuckled and turned the radio up a bit. I silently thanked him because I wasn't really in the mood to talk. I got comfortable in the chair as I saw the trees and buildings pass by.

When I got home it was about 6 and I already had a text message. I knew who it was from so I didn't even look at it. I got in the shower, put some music and let the water consume me. When I got out, I finally opened the message.

"Hey." Of course, it was from Luke. I sighed and started typing out everything I needed to say. I knew this was the right thing to do. 

"Hey, listen I think we should stop whatever this is. I can't be part of something that can really hurt someone because I've been hurt before and its just not fair to them. I hope we can still be the friends we were before." I looked over the message one last time and sent it. I then turned off my phone before I could get a reply. I didn't really wanna deal with that at the moment. So I did my homework and when I was done, I sat down and watched Glee until it was time to sleep.

When I woke up the next day, I was dreading going to school but I knew I couldn't miss the day because my mother would never let me get away with it. I did my daily morning routine and was then on my way to school. I still hadn't turned on my phone but I decided it would be better to check before I got there. I scrolled through notifications and realized I had 2 messages from Garret, 1 from Angela and 1 from Luke. I immediately went to the one from Luke and frowned. One simple word.

"Ok" 

I stared down at my phone in disbelief for about 2 minutes. That's it? Ok? What the hell! And then anger hit me. I guess in the back of my mind I had expected him to fight for me, to tell me he would break up with to be with me but I guess not. I took deep breathes, realizing we were almost at school. I kissed my mom on the cheek and ran towards the school and up the stairs because I didn't have a lot of time before the bell rang. 

I was able to make in time and sat in my seat while waiting for the homeroom teacher to take attendance. I tried my hardest not to pay to much attention to Luke because I was scared I was burst on him since I was still mad and didn't want to cause a scene so I decided to talk to Diana instead. Then the bell rang signaling the end of homeroom, I got was able to get out before anyone else and walked to my US History class. Thankfully during the rest of the day I didn't see him much and when I did he never saw me. Next week we had final exams starting with our writing one which was with our homeroom classes in another building.  And since I have the best luck in the world I was stuck with Luke, Angela, Diana and Mary all in one room for the whole day. Definitely looking forward to it.Note my sarcasm

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Well I hope you enjoyed it .. I may be able to post the next chapter today or tomorrow but I'm sure it will be soon... Tell me what you think, share, vote .. anything your attention is appreciated... 

love you guys,

Jenny Xx