Complicated Love

Chapter 6

Hey guys I'm trying to update as much as I can before school starts so bear with me lol. I had an interesting day today with my friends lol there is a picture of Jason on the side ! anyway enjoy Lovelies

Jenny Xx

Jenny POV

11 th grade has been alright so far. It's currently the middle of September and honestly I've been having a great time. I'm with all my friends most of the time so that's awesome and my classes are also pretty cool.

Garret and I have been separating a bit because I barely see him but were getting back to normal little by little. Angela and I are still super close and she's dating Jonathan. They started dating Sept 10 and honestly I'm so happy for them. Though it is a bit unexpected,they deserve each other. They're always all over each other which is a bit gross but after a while you kind of get use to it but still feel a bit uncomfortable. Luke recently broke up with a girl named Brianna. They lasted like 3 days and it was super awkward like everyone noticed, worse than me and him. What sucks about that is I'm starting to have feelings for him again. I still had a crush on Zac but he didn't seem that interested in me, we talked a lot and all that but I wasn't sure. I was sort of liking Luke again,sadly, but it was nothing big.  Obviously Luke can't know about my slight feelings but they're there. Sometimes that stresses me out because I mean why can't me and him just stay friends, why do I have to ruin it?

"Hey" Angela says to me as I arrive outside of homeroom.I smile, hug everyone else and then answer.

"Hey what's up?"

She tells me about some things and then we have to go inside homeroom.

At the beginning of September, when I went to Georgia,Luke and I talked a lot. He told me a couple of things from his past, some which I found surprising but I would never judge. Me and him since then have gotten really close. We talk everyday by text and on the phone. Sometimes Garret is added to the call other times its just me and him.Though sometimes I have to bitch at him since he can be such a whore.

I think I've hidden my feelings from him pretty good. The only ones that know are Garret,Angela  and Diana,they don't make it that obvious though so its good.

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October 14

Things are starting to get complicated for me. Luke and I are still really good friends and my group of friends are as close as ever but I don't know why, I can't get over liking Luke. its not working out so now I'm talking to Garret on the phone to see what he thinks.

"Garret, I can't keep doing it. It's getting so hard for me to hide my feelings for Luke."

"Well do you want to tell him? "

"No, but I just I don't know. I've done it before, why can't I do it now? "

" I don't know, honestly. I would help you if I knew but I just don't know.

"ugh!!!  you know what's the worst part?  I keep getting so jealous over all the girls he flirts with and then I try to tell myself that it shouldn't bother me because he doesn't care about any of them but it never helps!! I hate it!! " I groan into the phone and throw myself on the bed.

I thought I could control everything and maybe even get over it but its not happening and it frustrates me so much!!  Luke is completely oblivious to the fact that I like him,  and that I would basically do almost anything he asks me for. But the thing is he also confuses me, he sends so many mixed signals that I don't know what to believe.

Lately in P.E he's been really touchy with me, like he always wants me to hug him and he pokes me a lot, he also likes for me to watch him play basketball with Garret and Jason, like he's trying to impress me. He'll come up to me and tell me to sit by the court so I can watch them so Angela and I just sit on the floor and watch them play. Don't get me wrong, I love that he's like that with me but my question is, why? Does he like me or is he just being friendly? It's very confusing.