Faded Memories (COMPLETED)

Faded Memories|16

"Greyson!" I called when he finally appeared at the screen on my phone when he called for a facetime

"Hey there, princess. How are you?" He asks, smiling cheekily

Damn. I missed this guy

"I'm fine here. How 'bout you? Heard that you've been to places?" I asked and he nods

"Yeah. Its great here. You should go here some time and i'll tour you into places" He says. He looks so happy and i'm thankful that he's doing good there

"Hmm... let's talk about that. Maybe i'd visit you there, eh?"

"Are you serious? Damn. Yes, please.. i missed you" He says happily

"Course. Missed you too, Greyson Michael. Hope you're doing well there"

"Sophia..." someone calls from the door

"Wait a sec, someone's calling at the door" I said before looking who it is

"Yeah?" I tried my best to sound civil and he sighs as he walks in

Its been a week since i last saw him.. he looked.. so stressed

What happened?

"Who was that?" I heard Greyson asking from the phone

"Can we talk?" He asks timidly

"Were already talking, Shawn." I said and i grabbed my phone

I walked my way out of my office and i faced Greyson on my phone

"I really wanna talk to you for so long but i need to attend to someone.." I said through the screen

I can't remember the last time i talked to him but Shawn is a nuisance

"Yeah. I can see him behind you.." He says with no hint of disappointment.

Good thing that Greyson is understanding

"Call you again. Take care there, Greyson. And always update me" I remind him and he rogered

I chuckled

"Alright. Take care too, Sophia. Love you" He says before ending the call

I stopped walking when Shawn hugged me from the back. Damn. I missed him so much

"Baby.." he whispers on my ear and it gave me goosebumps. I closed my eyes firmly

"Shawn.. not here" I said and he pulled me out of the shop

I hopped into his jeep and he rest his head on the seat

"What?" I asked. I'm not in the mood to argue with him

"I'm sorry. I missed you" He says and he pulls my hand. Locking my fingers with his

"Shawn.." I started "Let's take a break" I finally said and pain grew in his eyes

"What? No.. i'm sorry. I know its wrong that i lied to you. I just don't want you to be upset when you know that i'll be with Hazelle" His voice was pleading and its like stabbing my heart with a thousand knives.

"Please.. baby. No. Don't do this to me" I can feel his pain. I don't want this too, Shawn. But we both need time

"I thought it'll be better if i wouldn't tell you.. i don't want us to get into fight again because of it. Sophia, listen to me. Please" He lifts my chin so i can face him

"Shawn.." I called him

"I'm tired.. i need time to think. You need time. We both need time.. and we both know that i'll always be upset when she's around. So let's just take a break. We need this. I want us to both have space and time to think.." I said and immediately walked out of his car.

Tears are continously flowing from my eyes and my heart is hurting but we both need this.

We need space and breathe without each other.. we need time to think and settle our issues. He'll understand me, right? Its for the better. All i want is to fix things between the all of us. And it takes time. We all need time to breathe and exhale all that shits that happened. Because honestly, i'm starting to loose my sanity. All of the past events were too much to understand and i don't think i can take it anymore..

I need all of the time to think and rest for a while.. i'm not giving up Shawn. I will never do that again. All i want is, to spend time for myself. I also want him to figure things out because the moment he would knew that he's going to be a father. There's no turning back. I know i can never him go of in my arms again. And before that happens, i want him to give him all the time he needs. Hazelle still needs him and i'll give it to them.

I need to think wise because its not about me anymore. Its not only about Shawn. Its about the child inside of me. I need to be careful. I don't wanna loose it again.

My chest is heaving and i couldn't stop crying.

I never thought that i could think like this.. i feel like i have a big resposibility because i'm pregnant.

And i'm scared. But no matter what happens, no matter what result that this decision will outcome. I will still accept wherever fate brings us..