Drifting Back [Fanfiction G-Eazy] Book 1

Surgery

Gerald POV

"Tomorrow? You've got surgery tomorrow?!"

" Gerald yes, relax Suzanne will come home with me. She'll call you as soon as I get out and I'll call you."

"Danny... I need... To be there!"

"You can't! You have to work!" We were hollering at each other in the hotel room alone. I didn't know why I was getting so frustrated over her going without me. Truth be told it was probably the lack of cocaine and the sheer fact that my girl could possibly have cancer and be facing this demon without me.

" What if..." My voice cracked as I looked away for a moment. " What if you don't wake up? It's so close to your heart D... What if I don't get to hold your hand again..."

"Think positive Gerald."

"Marry me D." My eyes watered as I grabbed her wrists, searching her eyes. " Marry me... Please... I'll go get you a big rock tonight we'll go find a place that can marry us right now."

" Gerald!" She sighed and took my face in her hands. " You aren't going to lose me babe! What is marrying gonna solve?"

" So I can make sure you'll always be Mrs. Gillum." A smile cracked across her lips before she shook her head.

" No I wanna walk down the aisle after this surgery... Cancer free..." I pulled her into my arms, releasing a held breath. Her arms squeezed me in a embrace. "I will marry you Ger soon... Promise me you'll stay clean?"

"I promise... Promise me you'll come back to me."

"I always do Gerald. Let's join the others for dinner downstairs alright? Enough negative shit."

"Yee" she laughed as I took her hand and we made our way to the elevator, the whole crew downstairs waiting for us. I couldn't help but think this possibly could be my last night with her ever. That this surgery was pretty fucking serious. Especially if it was cancer. The idea of a baby would be done and over with for a long time. She wouldn't be able to tour the world with me.

"Yooo! If it ain't ma and pa!" Grady smirked snapping a photo of us before we walked into the hotel resturant. My mom sitting on the other side of Danny.

"Real funny Grady. Wait till I catch you and Ellie."

" She will Grady, Danny can be real sneaky sometimes." Ellie giggled before flashing a smile as bright as Danny's. I held her hand in a near death grip under the table, even while I drank scotch after scotch. Everyone was getting pretty hammered before the food even came. Never in that moment had I felt more alive though. Even on cocaine, booze, or pills this moment was the best high. Watching Danny smile even with the fate tomorrow would bring. My mom and her hugging and chatting away. The guys daring Grady to do another shot and Ellie cheering them on. Then there was me, watching with a stupid grin on my face. Finally the food came, we all stuffed our already alcohol filled bellies then headed out. I had Danny in my arms, a grin along her face as she looked at me.

" What?" She mumbled, her palms against my chest as we stood in the elevator.

"Nothing, I can't smile?" A giggle escaped her before I pressed my lips to hers. "Tonight was perfect."

"I can't agree more. Unless we could have smoked weed in the restaurant." A smirk crossed her lips before she kissed me. There was a topic we both avoided so well. The elephant in the room that was eatting me from the inside out.

"I love you Danny..." It was then that I broke down and pulled her into a tight hug, closing my eyes and breathing in her scent as if it was the last time I would ever get to admire its perfection.

"I love you too Gerald." She kissed my neck and pulled away only to kiss my lips. Never had I been so careful with a woman. I grabbed her hips, letting her legs wrap around my torso as our tongues tangled together. Danny was better than any whiskey on the shelf. I fumbled us through the hotel door, going straight to the bed.

This wasn't lustful in anyway. This was me needing to hold her as close as possible one last time. She knew it and I think deep down she was scared too. Clothes were scattered, my name left her lips over and over like a sin passing a sinners lips in confession. She dragged me into my own bliss before I laid breathless, looking in those green hues. In that moment I remembered all the times I had over looked her. She was my friend that so happened to be a girl. The advice giver when I couldn't get a girl's attention. Now here we are, laying naked tangled together.

"Get some sleep Gerald."

"I can't when I've got the girl of my dreams right in front of me." A laugh escaped her as she pulled the covers up then placed her head on my chest. My finger tips drawing circles on her bare back.

"You're a goof."

" Yeah, but I'm your goof.." My eyes grew heavy. I didn't want to sleep, yet it trapped me like a nightmare. Before I knew it, I awoke. Alone. The space she took up was now empty and cold with a little note.
Don't worry about a thing cause every little thing is gonna be alright ;)
Danny x

A smile managed to cross my features before I sunk back into the sheets and took a shakey breath. Here I had to act if everything was okay. Meanwhile panicking was the only thing I could do all day. Slowly I got out of bed and surveyed my appearance. Shaving quickly and clicking my hair back. This was me... Gerald. Not G-Eazy. The man behind the mask was going to show today.