Healing

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Gerald POV

I would be fucking with her if I said she was looking better mentally. Yeah the weight had increased, but the crying and exhaustion didn't cease. This tour was far from over, which meant dividing my time between her and my career. Lately I just overlooked the girl whose smile lit up my life. The girl who was there when $10 was what I had to live off of for days. Now reality hit once the doctors said she was actually sick. That my fucking around and behavior was only feeding this illness.

I rolled over still wide awake at 5am, her soft breathing was now against my chest. It had been months since we slept in the same bed. Truth be told it was all my fault. That's how I am and she knows it... The whole world fucking knows what I'm doing to this woman. So what changed? Her body was gorgeous with this baby belly. Those green eyes still intoxicating. The doctors kept telling me it wasn't my fault, yet I couldn't help but feel I aided this depression.

"Danny?" I blinked away the tears forming as she moved slightly. "Baby girl.... D?"

"Mmm?" I placed my fingers under her chin and pressed my lips to hers. Those green eyes looked into my eyes once I pulled away. "What's wrong Ger?"

"I love you... I love this baby boy... I love that we'll get married and you'll always be able to pull me back when I fuck up. I always fuck up." I sat up and kissed her, my hand running along her swollen stomach.

"I love you too Gerald... Now let's go back-" Her eyes grew wide before looking down then at me. "Gerald! Gerald get the car! I think my water broke!"

"You think?!"

"I mean I think! This is the first baby I'm giving birth to Ger!" I jumped out of bed, slipping on a hoodie and my sneakers before packing her over night bag. We'd prepared for this day, yet this was early. Nearly two months early. I eased her to the car, this all felt like a dream when I was speeding through the bay area to the hospital. Her breathing was steady, it was then that I knew everything would be okay somehow.

"Baby it's okay..." I tried to say it calmly as I took her hand and gave it a squeeze. She just nodded before I parked the car and rushed her inside. Yet the doctors rushed to scan her and then she was gone. Taken away to the back for an emergency C section. My body trembled as I texted the crew.

Daniella is having the baby. C section, doctors seem worried 😥 - Gerald

I'm on my way sweetie! -Ma

Let's celebrate with some mini blunts - Marty

Grady and I will be there soon G - Ellie

Don't let her squeeze your hand too tight! - Matt

Baby Gillum! Yeee! - Blizzy

My heart was pounding as I started to pace. Was this how all father's felt before the baby comes into this world? I saw a nurse beginning to approach me, smile and clipboard in hand. The smile was a good thing right?

"Mr. Gillum would you follow me?" I nodded slowly and shoved my phone in my pocket before she handed me a cape and gloves. I felt like a doctor walking through that surgery room. Danny was on the table, a sheet separating her view of whatever the doctors were doing below.

" Hey baby... How ya feeling?" She grasped onto my hand, a nervous smile crept on her lips before I peaked over the curtain. Blood flowed as they cut open her stomach, I was gonna vomit if I didn't look away.

" They made me numb below the waist... What's it look like?"

" You don't wanna know D." I chuckled slightly before kissing her forehead then kneeling beside her. "You scared?"

"Of course..."

"Me too. I never thought I would be a dad let alone have a amazing girl like you." A smile crossed her lips before she stroked my cheek.

"Just promise you'll be there. When you can of course."

"I'll be there for both of you D. I promise." Cries filled the room as a slimy creature was wrapped into a blanket and cleaned off before transfered to another blue blanket.

"Congradulations Mr and Mrs Gillum you've got yourself a healthy yet premature baby boy." I stood as the nurse handed him to me. Already the doctor was quickly closing Daniella shut as I turned around and kneeled with the boy in my arms so she could see him. Tears were sliding down my cheeks and hers as we looked at the thing we had created. I knew for the rest of my life I would be there for this boy. My baby boy. I would form his attitude and personality more than any other male figure. Unlike my father I would be there for him. A good father.

"He's so beautiful." She whispered before kissing me softly. "He's already got hair... Gillum hair." I chuckled slightly before the nurse offered to take him back and I nodded.

"I'll get him cleaned up and we'll meet you in room 219 alright?"

" Yes... Thank you." I smiled before kissing Danny again. "I'll meet you in your room baby. I'm gonna go see if the others are here okay?" She nodded before sighing softly as I left. Quickly I took off the scrub and rushed to the waiting room, grinning like a fool at my mom and the gang. "It's a healthy baby boy. Yeeee!"

"O gosh I'm so excited for you Gerald!" My mom grinned before pulling me into a hug.

"They're getting her room ready now then we'll all be able to go in and spend some time with her and the baby."

"That's great G really. Can't wait to see the little guy."

"He's already lanky." I chuckled and watched as Grady flashed away with his camera.

"Daddy daddy daddy!" He chuckled as I shook my head. This was the only thing real in this fake world.

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