Drifting Back [Fanfiction G-Eazy] Book 1

Holidays

Daniella POV

"Right there! Yeah that looks perfect." I smiled as he climbed off the stepping ladder from putting the star on the tree. For once there was no black leather jacket or skinny jeans. Just joggers and a white t-shirt with untamed hair.

" Merry Christmas D!" He grinned showing the fake gold teeth at the bottom before I laughed softly. " Merry Christmas to you too little guy." His hand rubbed my stomach, a smile graced his lips as Suzanne snapped a photo.

"Ah my lovely couple and my single baby boy." She laughed as James huffed. Ellie and Grady snuggled up on the love seat. Marty and Matt rolling up little joints. Blizzy was fooling around with his phone, probably on Snapchat.

" Danny you're still looking a little skinny." I shrugged slightly, I didn't want to talk about it. Always missing meals and tossing away food.

"I'm just not hungry mom." Suzanne nodded slowly, though I noticed everyone sharing worried glances. "Say it's Christmas eve let's open the gifts early yeah? Cause I know all of you will be too hung over and I'll be awake alone." I laughed softly as Gerald grinned.

"I thought you would never ask." He sat down, pulling me into his embrace and looking to the gift. "Mom go first!"

"Alright honey...." She put on her glasses to read the tags. " Well thank you to all of you..." A laugh escaped her before she tore paper off like a child, Blizzy collecting the scraps. Her gifts included a spa day, a cruise, a blunt, and more cannabis cook books. Next was Blizzy, James, Grady, then Ellie. Everyone seemed to get a blunt except myself. Probably cause I was pregnant and restricted from fun. I felt disconnected from it all as if I was watching instead of participating.

"D babe it's your turn."

"O... Well alright." I flashed a smile to everyone. Baby clothes. How terrifying. Spa day with Suzanne. A diamond necklace from Gerald. Baby things. "Wow this is all so great guys! Really thank you." I kissed his cheek before looking down at the gifts before me while Gerald tore the paper off of his.

Things for this baby hell even that scary four letter word made me numb. Why was I so lost in this pregnancy. As if I didn't exist anymore. The only purpose I had was to push out this human being.

"Babe this is great thank you." I was pulled from my thoughts when Gerald kissed me, holding his leather jacket in hand with lips and vampire teeth on the back.

"You're welcome babe."

"Let's smoke up!" Grady hollared as everyone funneled to the back porch. There I sat still looking at the objects before me. I wanted to vomit. To turn back time and not feel this way. Slowly I got up and moved to the sofa, looking around the room.

" You okay?" Ellie nudged me, blunt between her lips and a half smile.

" Yeah just tired this baby takes a ton of energy... Tell everyone good night for me."

"O okay..." It left her like a whisper as I got up and headed up stairs. Curling into the blankets and laying in the dark. New years was like a repeat. I didn't even bother to try and make it to midnight. Then there was Gerald and I. Slowly drifting apart. Sometimes he would sleep on the sofa. I started to figure out why once the smell of booze and perfume invaded my nose frequently. He never brought cocaine home, after all I washed his clothes and checked his pockets not to wash anything important.

Then it got worse. If that's possible. Suzanne noticed. Then Ellie and everyone else when they would stop by and ask where Gerald is, yet I had to say I didn't know. In all honesty I could probably guess by the receipts and purchases of booze. Food and I became less of friends. Gerald didn't seem to care much. After all his behaviors didn't change. It almost became normal for me to sleep in a guest bedroom, hiding away from his voice and scent.

"Daniella?"

"What?"

"I'm fucked up..." He mumbled walking through the front door. The stench of alcohol reeked from his clothes as he fell beside me on the sofa. Tonight was an early night, we hadn't spoken in weeks, maybe months.

"Let's um... Get you showered." I whispered, helping him stand and walk up the stairs. Once in the master bathroom I helped him out of his clothes. Bruises. Not that kind from punches but lips. Teeth marks, lip stick marks, even scratches. I wanted to vomit. To yell and tell him how upset I am, yet I didn't. I started the shower and helped him wash before laying him in the bed. In a swift movement he yanked me down and hugged me slightly. I hadn't felt his arms in so long.

"I love you baby... You and that baby of ours... So much..."

"Mmmhmm" I swallowed the lump in my throat, holding back the tears.

"I'll marry you and.... And well have a couple kids. Right Daniella?"

"Mmhmm." Snores followed after. I moved away and walked into the hall, closing the door and sinking to the floor. Sobs left my body like tidal waves. Is this what it felt like to have your heartbroken? To sit at home and wait for the man you love to come home from his nightly affairs. I wondered if Devon was any of them until she called me saying Gerald was cheating. I didn't answer, just listened to the message on repeat. In fact I still have it.

Then bliss. Bliss was when I would just pass out or sleep. Thankfully no one had visited recently. Yet I knew in the end Gerald would start to care. This was the beginning of my recovery. Recovery from what I didn't even know. I did know how sick I really was, but shh it was my secret to keep.