Handwritten || s.m

1.5

"Why are you putting on lipgloss? You shouldn't even bother. It's not like any boys are kissing you!" I quickly put my lipgloss back in my pocket and try to leave the girls' bathroom before Jessica's friends can say anything else to upset me. I fail at this, as Molly Little trips me, causing me to fall out the door and have all the nearby students laugh at me. I rush to the cafeteria. "Oh, Ellie!" Rose exclaims as she sees me. "What have you done?! You're bleeding!"

"What?" I look down and sure enough, my right knee is grazed and blood is smeared down my leg.

"How'd that happen?" Jeremy asks. I look up to meet Jessica's eyes. She knows how without even having to ask. Her head slowly moves from side to side. 'Don't dare say how.'

"I slipped in the bathroom," I mutter, sitting next to Jeremy as he had got my food for me.

"The bathroom floor is lethal. It's like, made out of sandpaper," Rose takes a sip of her juice.

"You're telling me," I force a laugh, picking at a bread roll.

"This is why we need to work on your balance, Ellie," Shawn jokes.

'No, this is why I should tell you that your girlfriend and her friends bully me, but I'm too afraid to do so,' I think. 'But I'm meant to be left behind.'

It's a shame I can't tell my best friends that I'm bullied nearly everyday when they aren't around. With all the times that I've been push down to the ground, they're led to believe I lack balance because I say I've tripped. Little do they know I'm the top dancer in my class outside of school. They think I've stopped singing because I lost interest. Little do they know that I am RealMe, the person the school talks about nearly as much as Shawn.

"Ellie?" I look up at Jessica.

"Yes?"

"Would you like me to walk you to the nurse to get your knee cleaned up?" She smiles sweetly at me.

"Uh-"

"Oh that's so nice of you, babe!" Shawn pulls Jessica into his side and kisses her head. "I'd love the two of you to become friends!"

"Come on, Ellie! Let's go," she smiles at me again and comes around to my side of the table. I stand up and we head out of the cafeteria. "You better not mention how my friends and I treat you to anyone who could tell Shawn. I don't want you to ruin this for me. I really like him."

"Oh, you mean like how you guys ruin my life everyday?"

"How about this: if you promise not to mention anything, I'll tell my girls to take it easier on you," she says as we stop outside the nurses room.

"Fine," I roll my eyes. "But, next time they break my glasses, they can buy me new ones as well."

"Agreed," she holds out my hand for me to shake, which I do. "Now, let's get this over and done with so I can go and see my boyfriend again."

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Facebook:

*Shawn Mendes is offline*
*Rose Simons is online*
*Jeremy Corbin is online*

Group Chat: Fantastic Four

'Treehouse tonight?'

Rose: 'Shawn forgot to mention today if we were to go or not...'

Jeremy: 'We always go, be there in 10.'

'Okay, I'll head over now.'

Rose: 'See everyone soon x'

*Rose Simons is offline*
*Jeremy Corbin is offline*

I shut my laptop and head outside. I jump over the fence and see that there is light already coming from Shawn's treehouse. I guess Shawn was there waiting for us. Carefully, I climb up and poke my head through the door.

"Oh," I say, surprised. Shawn pulls away from kissing Jessica and turns too look at me.

"What are you doing here, Ellie?" He asks, his tone of voice annoyed.

"Uh, I- uh," I stutter before deciding to escape the awkwardness. When I reach the ground, Rose and Jeremy are there.

"Why'd you come down?" Jeremy says, lighting his cigarette.

"Shawn's up there, and he's annoyed with me."

"Why?"

"He's up there with-"

"Say no more," Jeremy starts climbing up to the treehouse. I turn to look at Rose and she just shrugs. "Hey, Shawn! Whatever happened to the no intruders rule?!" We hear Jeremy yell.

"You know what, I think I might just go home. I hate when they fight," I sigh, wrapping my arms around my body as the crisp autumn breeze picks up.

"Same," Rose stares up the tree. "You could always come over to mine if you want. It's been forever since we had girls only time."

"I would, but I've actually got homework I need to do," I lie.

"Another time?"

"Of course!" I give Rose a hug before climbing over the fence again and going back inside my house. Once inside, I fall on my bed and burst into tears. Seeing Shawn being that intimate with Jessica has made me realise that I'm in love with someone who doesn't love me back and never will love me in the way that I want. I don't let myself cry for long though. Pulling my jumper off, I grab my plain black shirt and quickly throw it on before tying up my hair. My camera is still set up in front of my keyboard. I press record and go to play the first song that comes to my head.

"I'm so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave.
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone.

These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just to real.
There just too much that time cannot erase.

When you'd cry I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me."

I can't help let myself let the tears flow as I sing.

"I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone all along."

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A/N: I've had so much inspiration to write this recently! Also the song Ellie performs is My Immortal by Evanescence. Such a great song and it has a lot of meaning to my mum and dude if I could go into detail I would but it makes me sad even though I love it lol.

Maybe if I still have inspiration to write more than one chapter a week I'll post one or two more in the next few days x

~Melody~