Best Enemies

Felix

Okay so here it is.  If you want your fantasies to come alive go to the secondending of this chapter.  

If you want your dreams to be crushed, go to the first one.  

If you are curious ( i know you all will be)  read both of them.

BUT PLEASE DONT HURT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Rubi enters the room and looks around. I get a glimpse of a dark room and rusty hanging lights. She turns around and her eyes are full of fear.

She lets go of the door handle for a second but as soon as she does the door slams and Rubi is locked inside. Peter tries the handle trying to open it but it won't budge. Without Rubi or Hanna I don't know what to do. They always knew what was happening. I turn to Peter whose face is the mirror image of mine.

Stricken with fear and horror.

We begin to walk along the corridor and he glances at me like he wants to say something. Eventually he stops abruptly and I turn around a few metres away from him.

He looks pale. So pale that the veins in his face are visible. I notice his eyes. So blue with a tinge of green in the edges and yellow in the middle. I walk slowly up to him.
"Peter, is everything alright?"
"I...Don't know any more Felix. I'm not the same person I was before. I just am so confused and I don't know what I am feelings are."

I pull him towards the bench at the side of the room. He looks at me.

I see his pink lips, scraped and covered in peeling skin. "I can't take it. The voices in my head are getting louder and I can't say it all aloud." His face is covered in freckles.

It reminds me of when I first saw Hanna and Nutmeg together. I went up to them to say hi but I jumbled my words at the sight of Nutmeg's features. Her eyes, her lips, her skin. All of it is perfect.

Now in my mind I imagine her face. I want to touch it. I reach out and cup it in my hands. Feeling how smooth it is. I lean closer and look into her eyes. My mind is spinning and I take a breath.

I lean closer colliding our lips. It isn't messy with smashing of teeth and slobbering of saliva. It is soft. Perfect. Full of emotion.

Her lips are rough and pieces of skin are around the edges, much like...

I jolt back to reality and open my eyes. Peters face is so close to mine. I suddenly realise that I am kissing him. I pull away and dash across the room to the other side. I am shocked.

My eyes are wide and my lips are parted. He looks confused. I quickly put the pieces together. What he was saying and why he has been so nice to me. NONONONONO. This can't be happening. Peter is gay and he thinks I am too.

I don't want him. I want Nutmeg. My brain is spinning. My back is pressed against the wall and I slide down onto the floor. My head in my hands. I don't want to look at him but he comes closer. This isn't right. I can't take it. What have I done! 

All these thoughts echo through my fuzzy brain. I look towards him through my watery eyes and rest my head on his shoulder. I have to tell him the truth. 

 He has to know the whole story.

~Alternate Ending (mainly for Kara or if you are emotionally scarred from what I have just said)~

Rubi enters the room and looks around. I get a glimpse of a dark room and rusty hanging lights. She turns around and her eyes are full of fear.

She lets go of the door handle for a second but as soon as she does the door slams and Rubi is locked inside. Peter tries the handle trying to open it but it won't budge. Without Rubi or Hanna I don't know what to do. They always knew what was happening. I turn to Peter whose face is the mirror image of mine.

Stricken with fear and horror.

We begin to walk along the corridor and he glances at me like he wants to say something. Eventually he stops abruptly and I turn around a few metres away from him.

He looks pale. So pale that the veins in his face are visible. I notice his eyes. So blue with a tinge of green in the edges and yellow in the middle. I walk slowly up to him.
"Peter, is everything alright?"
"I...Don't know any more Felix. I'm not the same person I was before. I just am so confused and I don't know what I am feelings are."

I pull him towards the bench at the side of the room. He looks at me.

I see his pink lips, scraped and covered in peeling skin. "I can't take it. The voices in my head are getting louder and I can't say it all aloud." His face is covered in freckles.

He is absolutely perfect in every way. His features are flawless. He's so funny, smart, flirtatious and hot AF.

I move across the cold, metal bench and put my hand on his leg.
"Peter, you can tell me anything. I will always be by your side."
"I sure hope so Felix, you're my only hope. I can't take it anymore. My head is full of loud, heavy thoughts that are bringing me down." Tears spring into his eyes.

I put my arm around him and let him lay his head on my chest. I don't feel uncomfortable. I feel whole. These feelings have been hiding under my skin and I haven't let them out. I have been trying to find myself but I have been resisting the truth. Everything is right now and I love it.

Peter looks up at me and I stare into his eyes. His lips are parted, dry. 

I lean close, pressing my lips against him. My chest heaves and Peter sits back up, clutching my face. His nails dig into my skin but I don't care. 

 My head is swimming with emotions and relief. I taste Peter's tears and his skin mixed together making a salty illusion.

 I have finally admitted to my feelings and learned to love myself for who I am.  

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Can I just say...

IM SO SORRY!!!!!!

I have just reached 11,000 words :)