Everything I Own

Aftershock

And because there is this rule, na courtesy of the one and only, carol cerveza, na dapat may matitirang matino sa tropa para in case of emergency ay may bebaby sit sa mga maoy, no headache and no feeling of dizziness ako pagkagising ko. Great!

Or not really?

Holy malloney! Parang dinaanan ng tornado ang kwarto ni mika. Hindi lang mga unan ang nakakalat, pati tao.

Tumayo na ako sa kama at lumabas sa kwarto para lamang lalong magulat. Ako pala ang unang nagising. At kung makalat sa kwarto, mas lalo dito.The chips.. Bottle ng black labels, red label at jack daniels. At shit! Bakit may whiskey? Hindi ko namalayan na bumili pa sila nito. Anak ng teteng. Sino bang nakatoka dito? Ay shit! Si Ara, isa pang kunsintidora yun eh. Tsk

Lumapit ako sa sofa at nakita kong doon na nakatulog si Kim. Tinitigan ko siya habang inaalala ang sinabi sa akin ni Mok kagabi. I dont know what to feel. Really. It was like i know where my place is but after hearing the news, i got confuse.

"So you got it hard with her huh?" Tanong ko sa tulog pa rin na si kim. Maybe, Mok's right. I am crazy. So crazy for this creature in front of me.

How can you do this to me? I thought that what we had was real but i guess, it is the other way around. F*ck! You fall for her. And you got me hanging, you left me hanging. You're the cruelest creature ever! And i hate it because i still want it with you. I still want to try. But seeing you right now, like this, i know the end is near. I know where to put myself in times like this. Im not new to this. It's not like it's the first time anyway.

"Staring is rude, you know?" Napatagal ata ang pagtitig ko sa kanya kaya hindi ko namalayan na nagising na siya.

"Sungit pa rin natin ah!" Biro ko. Pwede na siguro akong pumalit na best actress kay Jacquelyn Jose. Acting like you dont know anything huh? Really Cydthealee? Tsk

Napatigil naman siya at tumitig sa akin. I know she want to spill the beans to me. I know her very well. Pero ayaw ko pang marinig yun mula sa kanya. Maybe later. Or tomorrow. Or the day after tomorrow. Or not ever. I'd like that. So me being that selfish, i cut her unsaid words.

"Want some coffee? I'll make you one." Didnt wait for her answer. Agad akong nagpunta sa kusina.

Nanginginig pa ang kamay ko habang naglalagay ako ng kape sa coffee maker. This will be a vey long day. I look  at the wall clock on the top of the refrigirator, it's only quarter to six. But i need to wake those mummies around the condo. Its training day today.

After making kim her coffee, i gave it to her, on my very casual self. Yeah, try harder cyd. But she didnt notice anyway so im still safe.

Ginising ko na silang lahat. At inabot ata ako ng isang oras. Nyerms! Laklak pa gurls!

Nagpadeliver na lang kami ng breakfast. At habang kumakain, parang baliw si kianna, mok, ara and mika na tingin ng tingin sakin. I wish its because im beautiful but i need to wish more. I know what's on their mind. Yes guyths. Im a mind reader. Just kidding.

I feel so weird that i think i need to break the silence arising on the dining table.

"So, guys, san tayo after training?" Tanong ko sa kanila.

"Ate gurl, i think you're extra loud today. Kanina ka pa nung gnigising mo kami." Sabi ni dawn na pupungas pungas pa ng mata.

Naramdaman ko naman na may sumipa sakin. I look at the "probable" suspects and im positive its Ara. Nakatungo lang siya holding her spoon and fork so tight.

I think i need to shut up now. Mok's glaring at me. Like saying just-eat-cyd-please. Sorry naman. Im not good at this. And i will never be good at this.

I look at her at nakatulala lang siya while eating. What are you thinking now Kim?

I ate in silence. At sa wakas,natapos din ang weird na breakfast na yon.

And that means, start na ng training. What will happen now cyd? Are you ready?