Imaginary Boyfriend

Chapter 23 [part 1]: Confession

Chapter 23

          My palms were sweaty as I stood outside the door. My previous frustration was still there, but I was keeping it under control. But my nerves? They were going crazy. One minute I was boiling hot, the next freezing cold. There was an invisible force pulling me back, stopping me from barging through that door and screaming to Sam how much I loved him.

          Nausea settled in the pit of my stomach. I swallowed the lump in my throat and took a deep breath. I could do this. I could handle the rejection... if he rejects me. I shook my head. No. When he rejects me. 

          I leaned against the wall, blowing strands of black hair out of my face. I'd been so determind before and now... now I was just chickening out. I straightened up. No, I was going to do this. Even if it jeapardised our friendship... he had to know.

          Then, I literally knocked the door down.

          "Sam! There's something..." I trailed off, throat drying up and clogging up my words. 

          Sam spun around, his hair white with flour and face filled with surprise. "Kat," he exclaimed, stepping forward. "You're back! I thought-"

          "Are you..." I forced back a laugh. "Cooking?"

          He scratched the back of his neck, sending me a sheepish smile. "Erm, yeah." He laughed awkwardly. "There's a reason for that."

          "I'm sorry," I blurted, striding forwards until I was right in front of him. I smiled, reaching up to ruffle some flour out of his hair. "I didn't mean to get mad at you."

          His face brightened up. "Really? Because I'm sorry too!"

          I laughed, stepping on my tiptoes to lock my arms around his neck and pull him into a hug. He responded immediately, placing his hands on my back. Again, I let myself get my hopes up. Loads of best friends become more than friends...

          I pulled away but didn't let go. The proximity was distracting and there was nothing more I wanted to do than fill the space between us and kiss him. "I want to tell you something."

          He stared at me silently, nodding. 

          This was it... It was now or never.

          I averted my gaze, concentrating on the TARDIS on his tie. I began fiddling with it aimlessly. "How would you feel if I said..." I paused, licking my lips nervously. "If I said I wanted to be more than friends?"

          There was a huge silence, the only sounds being the clock ticking and our heavy breathing. It seemed to go on for eternity and my patience wavered. My heart slammed against my chest and I suddenly realised what a huge mistake I'd made. Tears filled my eyes but, stubbornly, I blinked them away.

          I backed away, feeling so stupid. He was looking at me, but his emotions weren't clear. He just looked and looked. 

          If I could've, I would have just crawled into a hole and died. It would've been better than standing there, with him looking at me like that. Those brown orbs were blank and unclear, as if he wasn't really seeing me at all, as if he was looking straight through me. The seconds ticked by and neither of us said a word. I hated to be the one to break the silence, but I just couldn't take it anymore.

          "I'm sorry," I said hastily, this time forcing out a laugh, instead of forcing one back. "I didn't mean- Just forget what I said. I mean... I'm so sorry, I've just ruined everything, haven't I? I knew I shouldn't have-"

          I probably would have kept talking if he hadn't have stopped me. I babbled in awkward situations and this was definitely awkward. But then the most amazing thing happened.

          He kissed me.

          And, as shock robbed all my muscles, I just stood there like an idiot.

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This is super late and I'm so sorry! To make things worse, this chapter is really short, BUT it's only part 1! I'll put up the next bit later! :)