Letter #14

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I feel like I've kind of put aside all of my objections at this point.

Who cares how old we are or what school we are in or you who you actually have feelings for? If I wanted you bad enough, I could have you. I want to liken it to people that want to buy a dog. They love the dog and there is no reason why they shouldn't have a dog, but then they find out the price and they are like "um nope." They would be very capable of taking home the dog, but maybe they don't want the dog enough. Except the dog has no feelings in the matter. The people are not considering the dog's feelings because just as long as the dog stays happy and finds a good home. I believe that is where the difference lies. I care a lot more about your feelings than people do about a dog's. I'm not sure if you would want me to take you home, so I am reluctant. I am capable and I want to, I really want to, but the principle still stands. I could have you, but would you want me? That's the part that I'm not too sure about. I feel like I'm just talking in circles, but maybe you can pick the idea out of this tangled mess,

My hands are really cold and I am still sick. I think I might have a fever because I haven't been warm all day. Maybe I'm just empty. Today seems like one of those empty days. Empty of all feeling and all warmth. Maybe it's not bad, besides the whole being cold thing. 

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