December 27, 2013
Ok. I was totally shocked. I mean I think I dropped my jaws down the ground floor of the building where we're working. (I was at the 2nd floor by the way). Why? My officemate just asked me, "Why do you believe in God? Can you even see him?" The fact that he was one of my closest friends at work and we hang out a lot together (and flirt. He's gay) got me taken aback. Well, he already mentioned to me before that he considered himself an 'illuminati', which I thought was just one of his lame jokes, but It never occured to me that he was really serious when he said that. I feel like I'm a useless human creature. I'm supposed to be spreading the glory of God. I have all the time and chance to evangelise but what? Hoooooh. This freaking not-so-awesome.
My weakness? I always try my best to please everyone (just like what I mentioned on my previous entry) Blame it to the ambiance of the place where I grew up and the people who were around me the whole time. I always tell myself I need to do this and that so my Dad will finaly take notice something good out of me. Its been always my father. He got these 'standards' I can't really pass. My God-given abilities has its limimtations, I'm just a human being. I can't be Einstein. I can't be a Magna Cumlaude once I graduate in College. I can't be everything he wants me to be. So I hope you see where I'm coming from?
Now going back to my colleague, I think it'll take time before I could really unlock his closed,chained,pattern-locked, sensor-locked, and whatever lock he have on his mind. He's not really into it.
The problem with most of those who don't have religion, they keep on denying the fact that there is Someone SUPREME above us all. They keep on justifying everything that is against the Law of God to satisfy their needs or happiness they thought they couldn't get under Christianity. They keep on telling themseves (effect of Beelzebub?) that as long as you're not doing anything bad against someone, then you're fine. Live the life to the fullest. Sheesh. I don't know how they do it. I can't even imagine myself without Him. I...I know I can't really explain this in words but all I can say is. There is definetely God.
2 Corinthians 4:4
In their case the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelievers, to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.
