For the past few days, I've been trying my best to claw my way out of these obstacles that I'm going through. With my own strength and capabilities. So I ended up failing. It wasn't much of a surprise for me.
Just yesterday, I watched this "Flywheel" movie with some of my churchmates and I came to realize that just like the main character on the story, there is something wrong or probably missing in me that's why I cant press on forward. I'm stuck with whatever state I'm in right now because I'm not spiritually and emotionally stable.
There will be instances in our lives wherein our FAITH will be tested. And I must admit that I failed based on my own observation. I'm in a mess right now because I don't know where to start with. I'm in doubt with my own belief and God's ability to pull me out of my miseries. As it was written, "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;" (Proverbs 3:5 NIV). Though I'm a hundred percent sure that the whole time I was fighting against these odds, I was relying on my own understanding which is contrary with the scriptures.
Maybe if Christianity wasn't introduced to me few years ago, I won't be wasting my time pondering over these thoughts. Or maybe these won't even cross my mind. But you see, my outlook and perspective in life have been altered because it happened. And right now, with the visions of Hills of Zion City Church which is to be conformed into the image of Christ, I am trying my very best to be compliant.
Praise God to the highest because He is such a merciful God. If it wasn't for His faithful children I might have been lurking on a highway to destruction. That's the beauty of being in a cellgroup. You get motivated, you get corrected. ("Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results" James 5:16) You'll know where and how to start once more because there are godly people around, leading you to the right path. Thanks be to God.
Take a quick look on yourself and the choices you've made in life. Do you think you did the right thing? Me? For the most part, I'll say no. But as of right now, while I'm reeling with these realizations, I want to say I wanna do the right thing this time. And I'm asking God to take over my life, for the nth time, and may His will be done.
I will fail at some point, yes, and I will surely hurt God in the process. But with His grace and overflowing love, I know that I can surpass all of it. ( "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Phil. 4:13)
*Isaiah 41:13 ESV /
For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, “Fear not, I am the one who helps you.”
*1 Corinthians 10:13 ESV
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
*Romans 12:2 ESV
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
*Psalm 18:2 ESV
The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
*Jeremiah 29:11 ESV
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
(Try to open up your Bible and let Him speak to you Himself. God bless us all. All praises and honor be unto God)
