Poems

|| reason to live ||

Life is pretty simple, isn't it?
just like mine, normal
before the storm came...

young pretty girl,
who goes high school,
cool parents,
best friend as crazy as me,
full of ambitions...

loving boyfriend,
little silly fights and cries,
occasional parties and fun,
struggling to be in the race of life...

don't you think its cool and normal?
but is it that simple as it sounds?
maybe, until my world decided to spin around
until fate decided to play bitch...

crashing my world upside down
just as the car went crashing
taking all my family from me
leaving me on the edge...

now what do I do?
here I'm struggling to breathe
in this awful hospital bed
struggling to hold on
to this pathetic life
after losing family...

Its time to release the string,
to let go and leave it all
when there is no reason to live...

cause living is hard and dying is easy
so I choose the easier one
but then you become my reason
to live, to hold on
to hold on to you

can't imagine this life without them
but can't dare to leave you behind either

so you walked with me
on the path of thorns
and in the nightmares of hell
you become my hope of light

you mend my broken heart
putting the shattered pieces together
and begged me to stay
for you, for us, for them

you asked me to fight this battle
as you become my armour
and I did, for you.

A/N : I wrote this after reading the novel 'If I stay' by Gayle Forman.