B5 Just Dance, Unrequited Love Story

Part 18: Because I Love You

Leo

Thanks to my brother dinner was delicious, but as my food settle so did the atmosphere; no longer giddy and excitable.

"Lee.." Elisha trails off, I could tell she was in deep thought as we sat back in front of the tv to continue our game.

"Yeah Kitten," I response anticipating the worst.

She responds hesitantly with her eyes fixated on the tv screen, "why'd ya do it?"

I knew what this was all about and I knew what answer she wanted but I'm not sure I could give it.

"You said that Melody and my Aunt had something to do with it. That my Aunt compared Melody and you to me and you. How could there be a comparison when we're only friends, best friends at that?"

I said nothing so there was an awkward pause. An awkward pause where my eyes wandered and met my brother's, he obvious noticed the atmosphere change from his view in the kitchen but was oblivious to the cause.

"If he's your best friend what am I?" Jason voiced acting surprised, coming to my rescue.

"Hm, I guess that depends," Elisha says perkier than before.

"Depends on what?" Jason asked.

"How honest you are with me," she replies.

"Oh and I guess Leo is an ol' Honest Abe, huh?" Jason patronizes us.

"Something like that," Elisha says quietly facing me, our eyes meet.

Elisha is determined to get answers so no matter how many distractions my brother or I put in her way she found herself back at Point A trying to straight shoot to Point B.

"Come on Lee, we're never gonna have a serious conversation with your brother butting in," Elisha says while yanking my arm in the direction of my room. There's no saving me from this point and don't have many options as is.

When we were in the room she closed the door behind us and we both settled on the bed facing each other.

"Tell me what you were thinking , and how you're feeling," she spoke softly no longer taking avoidance as an answer. "Do you.. How do you want us.." Either she was struggling with her words or trying to piece all her ideas together.

"Look, I honest was working all on rage when I sent those texts and pictures to Kelly, you probably want to hear a more detailed reason, a more honest reason but I don't think you're ready to hear where my mind's been going over the last week."

"Why wouldn't I?" She quickly retorts.

"Because my feelings for you have never really changed since the first day we met in that Psychology class. I've grown since freshman year, and so have those feelings. You're leaving in four days and I don't want you to get confused over me, I know where I'm gonna be when this tour is over and that's wherever you are. I won't pressure you 'cuz if friends is all you see us as, I can deal with that, that's where I'll be."

Gosh what had I just done? I had to just let it all out, if I was thinking I wouldn't have done it, but my feelings were making my mouth move and not my brain.

"Wow," was her astound response. Apart of me believed she knew my feelings toward her and that me saying them just gave it all true existence.

Her mouth stayed agape for awhile. "You trynna catch flies?" I joke attempting to lighten the mood. She smiled and her eyes glossed over.

"No, sorry," she replies. "No matter what my decision," Elisha repeats my words for clarity.

"I'll be there," I confirmed.

"Good, because I love you," she announced then sounded like she would say more. "But with tour coming I don't want to complicate our friendship. You can continue as you want but maybe next year when I come back we can, you know," she trailed off.

"Continue from here," I finished for her, she nodded happily.

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Author's Note:

Next up the beginning of the tour... Woohoo!

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