The Music or the Misery (Book 2)

There's A Light On In Chicago

                    

It's all good and well that I plan to confess my undying love to Patrick but it's very possible that I've left him one too many times. I could be rejected and there would be nothing that I could do. I try not to dwell on it too much, deciding to focus on the positive side of things. Very soon, I could be happier than I've ever been. Which means I'll be making the man of my dreams happy too.

First though, I'm going to need some advice. I know Riddly will be more than willing to help me out. Although I didn't expect her greeting.

"Violet, please tell me you're calling to let me know that you're now madly in love and happier than ever!" She begins and I immediately have flash backs of leaving Patrick at the airport. I don't think I could feel guiltier and alone but that can change.

"About that... I'm calling for advice" I respond quietly. "I'm not quite happy yet" I continue.

"Why not? Where are you?" She asks suspiciously and I sigh, wishing I hadn't made so many mistakes. I shouldn't have to be calling her. I should already be with Patrick but I'm just so friggin stupid.

"On campus" I reply and I can almost hear how shocked she is before she speaks.

"What?! Why would you be on campus?" She replies, sounding a little crazy.

"I am on campus because I'm an idiot and I left Patrick at the airport in Chicago. I know that I shouldn't have but I didn't know what to do. I panicked and left, it tore me apart but I don't want to talk about that. I'm calling because I want to make it right. I need your advice" I explain. She's quiet for a few seconds as if she's thinking.

"Sometimes I want to swat you over the back of the head. I swear!" she begins, her tone changing from high pitched crazy to high pitched excited. "But, I'm thankful you've finally seen sense. You can't stay miserable forever" she continues happily.

"I know, which is why I need to fix this. I want to be with him. I've known for a while Riddly, I was just scared" I explain, still nervous about the future. "What if he doesn't want me back?" I ask pathetically.

"You know he's not going to reject you right. He's crazy about you, it's obvious" she says, calming me a little.

"I don't know what he will say but I need to try at least" I state.

"You need to tell him how you feel Violet. As soon as humanly possible. The less time the both of you are hurting, the better" she encourages and I completely agree with her. I'm just not sure how I'm going to tell him. I can't just show up at his door. "What are you thinking Violet?" She continues when I don't say a word.

"I'm thinking that I can't just tell him as if it's no big. I can't just call him" I explain, then sigh. I don't know how to show him how I feel and make sure he knows I'm serious.

"You need to go back to Chicago. Being in Cambridge is no good. That's the first step" she suggests.

"Yeah, I suppose that's a good start" I laugh. "I could surprise him?" I ask, wondering if that actually a good idea.

"Yes! Don't tell him a thing! Oh, this is so cute!" She exclaims and I laugh. The thought of actually putting a plan into action, making my stomach swirl.

"You've come so far Riddly. You never used to care about romance" I reply, smiling.

"Well, I guess you brushed off on me. So, what are you going to do?" She asks.

"Knock on his door and run away" I joke and Riddly tuts.

"This is serious!" She exclaims.

"I know it is but I'm nervous okay?! This isn't easy" I sigh, annoyed that I don't know how to tell him. I want to grab his attention. "Although I am tempted to just show up at his door. I miss him" I confess.