Secretly Loving My Bestfriend (COMPLETED)

Chapter 44

James' POV

Weeks have passed after the Prom and the graduation day is fast approaching. Few more days left.

With those weeks, smiles were plastered on people's faces. Of course! Who wouldn't be happy if they got the chance to have even just a dance with the one they love?

And from those weeks that have passed, I got no sign of Althea. She really did left. I just sighed deeply.

I'm just sitting in my seat watching my friends talking with Sarah and Jay happily.

They looked so happy together. I guess I don't have the guts to ruin that.

Seeing her happy makes me happy too. What just hurt me is the fact that I am not the reason behind it.

And seeing my friends happy with them left me no choice but to just be happy for them.

That's what friendship is, right? Happiness of your friends before yours. I smiled at the thought.

No hurting others this time. It's better this way.

I would rather hurt myself than removing in their faces the happiness I couldn't give.

Everyone is bound to be hurt in time and this time, I'm the one who's bound to get hurt.

Selfishness still won't bring me happiness so it should just go this way.

I was just staring at nowhere when someone talked.

"Hey bro! What's up?"

"Nothing Kris." I just smiled.

Then his forehead creased. "James, why are you so distant lately? Is it because of them?" pointing Sarah and Jay from afar.

I just shrugged in response. It's really not because of them. Or I guess partly, yes. I'm being distant because I'm giving the space for people who could make my friends happy. They deserve to be happy and I can't give it that's why I'm being distant.

I just stood up, got my things and left without saying anything.

The days ended just like that. They talked to me then I left. It was like a daily routine in school.

There's just no use if I stay with them. I can't make them happy and I can't stand seeing Jay and Sarah being happy together. Call me selfish but I know, the favor is still in them.

I got used to end every day just that way. I'm so used to it that I almost didn't notice that tomorrow will be the graduation day.

How could I get used to it. I just laughed sadly at it.

I've been thinking about this and I know for sure that tomorrow will be the right time for this.

I'm just doing nothing but lie in my bed, thinking of what will happen after this.

I got my phone on the table at the side and composed a message.

"Sarah, can we talk tomorrow after the ceremony? It won't take too long, I promise." then I tapped send.

Then I put my phone back on the table and continue thinking of what would possibly happen right after this.

I have fallen into my deepest thought of possibilities when my phone vibrated. Then I read the message coming from her.

"Sure! Where are we gonna talk? :) "

I just smiled at her response. Then composed my reply.

"Just there in the benches at the park. See you :)"

I sent the message. This will be the last. Probably a farewell talk.

===

Then the graduation day has come. The most awaited moment of the students here.

I just smiled. They're so happy so might as well be happy. After all, I still have lot of reasons to be happy.

"Are you happy, James?"

I looked at the one who asked. "Yes tita. And I'm kinda excited too." I answered.

She smiled. "Good. C'mon let's go there already."

Then we went to where the ceremony will be held.

I just waited for the ceremony to end. Not that it's boring but I just can't wait to talk to Sarah. It would be the last time after all.

I guess I don't need to say goodbye to Kris and Honey. It's like they already know what I wanted to happen.

They seem to adapt to the environment where there's no James that can be found. I just smiled bitterly.

"Congratulations to all graduates!"

And that's it. The ceremony has ended. It just went smoothly.

"Congratulations James! Your tito and I were so proud of you!" Tita said and then she hugged me and so I hugged her back.

"Thanks tita. Everything's all for you cause I won't be having this chance if not because of you so thanks a lot tito and tita." Then we made a group hug.

After a moment, we broke the hug. "C'mon let's go home already. We'll have our mini celebration."  Tito said.

"Ah tito, you can go home first, I'll just talk to someone." I just said.

Tito just grinned like a psycho. "Who could that someone be?" He teased and I just frowned.

"Hon, stop teasing James."  Tita scolded and then she glanced at me. "We'll just be in the car. We'll wait for you outside since you said it won't take long, right?" Tita said and I just nodded.

They went outside and so I went to the park where we will talk.

I was walking with a lot of things on my mind. I was a bit nervous for an unknown reason.

How will I approach her? Should I just say 'Hi'? Or maybe a smile will do?

And how will I going to bid my farewell? What will I say?

Fck! I thought this would be just a piece of cake but I'm so wrong!

My mind's been occupied by my own thoughts while I am walking.

Everything  I was thinking went blurred and I suddenly felt like a deaf because of what I've heard.

My heart is beating erratically and to know who said that, I took a glance in front of me and there I saw people smiling at each other.

"Talaga Sarah?! Sinasagot mo na ako?"

"Oo Jay, sinasagot na kita" and they hugged each other.

Bigla akong nanigas sa kinatatayuan ko. So ngayon pa naging sila? But they kissed! I felt hundreds of knives stabbed in my chest.

Akala ko magiging masaya ako ngayon kahit papa'no pero hindi pala. Napangiti na lang ako ng mapakla.

Ilang sandali akong nanatiling nakatayo doon nang bigla akong nilingon ni Sarah habang sila'y magkayakap pa rin.

Her face went pale in a second and so I smiled at her and mouthed "Congrats"

It was so painful seeing the view so I turned my back on them and walk away.

I just can't stand seeing them in that position. I can't bear the pain anymore.

A tear escaped from my eyes and I didn't bother to wipe it.

Once again, I'm leaving. I'm leaving, with my heart shattered into pieces.