Secretly Loving My Bestfriend (COMPLETED)

EPILOGUE (Part 2)

After moments full of hesitations and negative thoughts, I just found myself going towards the church where the wedding will be held.

I just tried to convince myself that I am the one who will be getting married with the woman I love that's why I decided to go.

But who am I kidding? Tss. This is so not me. I'm better and smarter than this.

What else can  I do? I just love her and I don't want to ruin her happiness. I'm willing to do the dumbest thing just to make her happy in the end.

I just don't understand. She isn't my happiness but I just can't stand seeing her disappointed and hurt.

"OMG! James! It's been a long time! How are you?" someone shrieked.

I turned my gaze and there I saw Honey smiling widely while walking towards me and enveloped me with a tight hug. I just hugged her back.

"It's indeed a long time Honey and I'm fine.. I guess" I answered whispering the last part of my statement.

"Hey bro!" He tapped my shoulder lightly. "Hey Kris!" Then we did a fist bump.

We did some chitchats of everything that has happened in our lives in the past years that we haven't seen each other.

We were so engrossed with our conversation when the wedding organizer told us that the ceremony will start already.

I just walked towards my spot then I saw Jay. I just gave him a small smile.

"Congrats bro! Take care of her ha?" I just said to him then tapped his shoulder lightly.

He then smiled widely. "Thanks bro! And of course I will take care of her" he said happily and I just nodded.

The organizer told us that the bride has arrived and so the man beside me smiled widely.

We were all just waiting for the moment when the door suddenly opened and there we saw the bride was standing.

All eyes were on her including mine. I heard compliments coming from people but I just focused my attention to the woman walking slowly at the aisle in her father's arm. Then a familiar song started to play.

🎶 What if I never knew?
What if I never found you?
I'll never have
this feeling in my heart 🎶

Yeah. Maybe if I never met you, I won't be like this. If didn't knew you, maybe I won't fall hard and end up broken like this.

Maybe I won't have this feeling, this heartaches that I'm having right now if you didn't saw and approached me.

🎶 How did this come to me?
I don't know how you found me.
But from the moment I saw you,
Deep inside my heart I knew. 🎶

Pa'no nga ba nangyari ang lahat ng 'to? Di ko na matandaan. Para bang paggising ko bigla ko na lang narealize na nahulog na pala ako sa'yo.

I just can't remember how you approached me. I just woke up one day having you as my friend.

They're right, everything starts at friendship. My feelings towards her, these heartaches I'm having and everything just started when we became friends.

🎶 Baby you're my destiny,
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I'll give my love to have it whole
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be
My destiny.. 🎶

You're indeed my destiny. I am destined to be hurt and you were the one who kept on hurting me.

We're really meant for each other. I was meant to fall in love with you and you were meant to inflict pain to me.

I gave everything in. I admitted it to myself that I'm in love with you. I am loving you even just from afar, or even just secretly.

I gave you my love without you knowing, thinking that I can have you wholely in that way but was wrong.

Everything feels so wrong but I can't see it. Maybe because you were always meant to be my destiny. You're maybe the way towards the right one for me.

Maybe I was meant to be hurt by you and to be happy with someone through you. No one knows.

🎶 Baby all we need,
Is just a little faith.
Cause baby I believe,
That love will find a way.. 🎶

Maybe I just need to have faith that I will find someone who's meant for me.

I believe every pain and heartaches that I'm having is worth it when I found the right one for me already.

🎶 Baby you're my destiny,
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I'll give my love to have it whole
And as far as I can see
From now until eternity
You were always meant to be
My destiny.. 🎶

I am still mesmerized by her beauty until she reached the altar.

Her father gave her hands to Jay, telling him to take care of her daughter. Jay just nodded in response.

He then look at Sarah and they both smiled at each other.

I suddenly felt something stabbed in my chest. It stings. A tear was about to escape in my eyes but I tried to stop it.

I blinked few times, preventing this fcking tear to escape. My hands balled into fists. Why does it still hurts like this?

Then all of a sudden, Sarah took a glance at me. "You made it! You came!" she said and I just nodded in response.

I gave her the sweetest smile I could give right now, telling her that I'm happy for her, even though it's hurting me. Her happiness matters to me.

Then they both faced the altar and the priest started saying something but I couldn't hear it clearly.

My attention is fully focused on the girl I love. She will soon be tied to the man she loves.

And it's sad to say, but I am not the man she loves and I will never be.

They said their vows to each other already, they put the rings on each other's ring finger and the most awaited part by everyone.

"By the power vested in me, I now pronounce you, husband and wife. You may now kiss the bride.." the priest announced.

And that was it. They kissed. Everybody was cheering for the newly-wed couple.

They were so happy while I'm just here hurting silently.

That's it. She officially belongs to someone now. And that someone isn't me.

I'm so tired of holding back. I let go of the tears that were about to fall awhile ago.

Tears fell fast like they're having a race. I don't want to spoil the moment so I decided to turn away and leave.

The longer I stay in that place, the smaller the broken pieces become.

I walked away. Not even looking back to see if someone notices cause I'm used to this. I just leave when I'm hurt. No one cares anyway.

Once again, I am leaving, leaving with these shattered piece with me. I'm maybe leaving but there's one thing that will remain.

"I will forever love my bestfriend.... secretly."