Secretly In Love With A Big Girl

Chapter 28

~ Shawn ~

She really left me. We had a daughter and we named her Bella  and today our divorce is going to be finalized . she walked into the office with her lawyer looking good as ever . she  had her hair curly and she had on some jeans and a nice top . We agreed she gets the house , she was suppose to get half of everything but she didn't want it she only asked for enough money to get a home for her and the kids . I didn't fight her on anything .

" He's willing to give you 20 million " her lawyer said

" Shawn earned that money I don't feel like I deserve to have it . I'm thankful for the house he got us . I just need him to sign "

" I don't want a divorce "

" We discussed this already "

" So you just gone try to play me like. That " I said

" Shawn its been a year now "

" But yet you haven't moved on and I haven't moved on "

" Do you know how embarrassing it is to get cheated on and played when I know I put my all into us ?"

" Hanging out with August Alsina include that "

" You can't make that decision who I hang out with and I didn't see anything wrong with going to dinner with him . "

" Your married " I said

" If you could just sign the papers " she signed

" I will sign them on one condition " I said

" What's that "

" Let me earn you back . we can start from the bottom.and work our way up and if you still don't want me in 3 months I will sign them"

" Shawn this is not let's make a deal "  Pretty said

" I just don't wanna lose you " I said

" I'm already gone Shawn you already lost me "

" Pretty if that's how you feel I will sign the papers . "

" I do I just wanna be free from you "

" Okay then "

I signed my name on the papers and walked out . I heard her yelling

" Shawn Shawn "

That was a year ago  she was standing over me in my t- shirt . that was a dream but she did divorce my ass

" Pretty could you find some pants  "

" Shawn Hush you didn't give me any pants  "

She sat on my bed .

" Pretty I'm.serious "

" Okay Shawn what do you want me to do  "

" You said you ain't love me anymore . then you show up and now you  in my shirt  " I said

" Shawn I never said I didn't love you I said I wanted to be free and  your the one who wanna spray me down with water and have a balloon fight . knowing I don't have clothes here  "

" Free to do what see other niggas "

" Free to find myself . not just be your wife "

" Being my wife wasn't good enough "

" it was until you cheated on me . Shawn I gave you my all and I gave the kids my all . but what about me . I looked after y'all but nobody looked after me I need to look after myself "

" Babe "

" Shawn I'm not mad I forgive you . but I think this is the best thing for us .we co parent great "

" I haven't seen or touched another woman "

" Good for you Shawn . "

" " Have you been with another man "

" yes i have but I'm just focusing on myself and the kids I've fully committed myself to going to church .  "

" I've been going to church too . I kinda think that's why I lost my way I forgot who put me in position . Who were you with "

" That's great Shawn and it's not really important right now because your going to get mad "

" okay i will drop it for now . Is there anyway I could maybe take you on a date?  "

" I would like that  Shawn "

" Just dinner "

" Shawn "

I stood up and walked to her . she was backing back and she bumped into the wall . I picked her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist. Our lips we so close

" Let me take you to dinner . I won't try anything " I said

" I might though Shawn . like I'm completely okay with being alone and I don't think about sex until I'm around you . but when I see you I want you soo bad and I've prayed about it "

" I want you too but I don't deserve you right now . I wanna earn you back . and when I get you back baby imma cherish you " I pecked her lips . she grabbed my face and started kissing me . I pulled away and I put her down

" Shawn please " she said

" I'm trying to be a gentleman Pretty "

" Its been a long time "

" Pretty please "

" Shawn don't make me beg "

She pulled my t shirt off that she had on . and she backed me to the bed and climbed on top of me .

" Pretty come on now let's just start slow "

" We started slow last time and look what happened " she said

" Are you sure this is what you wanna do "

" Shawn I wanna have a family again "

" I want that too "

" Make love to me Shawn "

" Pretty no let's just take it slow . You need to go home and I will pick you up tomorrow at 7pm for dinner "

" Seriously Shawn "

" yes now put that shirt back on. I will be in the bathroom.I'm about to take a cold shower  "

Next evening

~ Pretty ~

I looked over my dress . this year has been good to me . I went to therapy learned to really love myself and my kids . i am at a happy weight . and I realized I wanna be with Shawn last night
I made a fool of myself but I wasn't embarrassed because it was Shawn . I also really needed to tell Shawn about august before anyone else did . I heard the door bell ring the baby sitter answered and yelled my name . August was at the door .

" You can't be here "

" Why not ? "

"Me and Shawn are trying to work things out "

" You weren't working it out with him when you were laying up with me "

" We had sex once August and it was a mistake  "

" See its not going down like that "

" August it's done "

" So you fucked August ? "