Secretly In Love With A Big Girl

Chapter 35

We ate and went to sleep . I woke up Shawn was still asleep. I slipped out of bed and went and got into the tub . I was soaking when he walked in and he was still naked .

" So you gone shower without me "

" Bae you were asleep " i said

" You put me to bed , so you could sneak off "

" You can get in if you want to baby " i said

" Nah , i will run and go get us some food and let you enjoy yourself "

" Okay "

" What do you have a taste for ?"

" Can we get some Ruth Chris i want a steak "

" Houston got steak too and it's cheaper "

" That will work " i said

" Steak and a potato "

" Yes babe and can you stop somewhere and get me some Mac and cheese "

" Alright " he kissed my forehead

" I wish i wasn't pregnant so i could get drunk " i said

" Well you are soo "

He took a shower and got dressed . He ordered ahead so it wouldn't take long

~ Shawn ~

I was walking out of Houston's when i bumped into Clarissa . I looked at her

" Damn Shawn you still look as good as ever "

" And look i lost my wife once making a mistake with u that shit will not happen again " i said

" U have a child "

" I don't i used a condom with you . If you wanna take it to the media go ahead . I have to go " i walked off . Bitches always want me to be their baby daddy . A nigga got 5 kids already

" When i got back to the hotel " she was bent over trying to twerk like the city girls video

" If you don't get yo ass up girl " I scared her so she almost fell

" Shawn u play too much "

" No you play too much now come do that on my lap " I said

She was twerking in my lap . Next thing i know we are having sex . She was riding me while we kissed . I licked up her neck and sucked on her jaw line .

45 mins later

She ate her food . And smiled at me . We were in the bed watching tv .

" Guess who i saw when i was out "

" Clarissa hoe ass " she rubbed my chest

" Yeah how you know "

" You butt dialed me "

" She's talking about we got a baby "

" Well Shawn that's your business " she laid back down on my chest

" What does that mean ?"

" You just better hope it's not your child "

" Or what "

" I'm leaving you " she laid back down and went to sleep like she ain't say shit

" Pj "

" What babe ?"

" Are you serious ?"

" Yes i am , it's one thing to forgive you for cheating it's another too have a child that's a constant reminder "

" That's fucked up"

" You fucked up when you fucked her "

" We already have 5 kids one more wouldn't hurt "

" The key word here is "WE "  "

" I think you are being selfish right now "

" So If August would have gotten me pregnant you would be okay with that " she asked

" Fuck no i would kill you "

" That's my point so no "

" We can make it through anything "

" Yes we can , but i don't wanna make it through this "

" Why not we are suppose to be a team "

" We are a team , but I'm good on That "  she said

" So you want me to be a dead beat dad to my child if it's mine "

" No I'm saying you can be whatever u want to be to the child , but I'm done "

She rolled over and went to sleep . I was laying on my back .

" that's really selfish of u "

" I know but i don't care "

I looked at her and it was dark but she was crying . I ran my hands through her hair .
I kissed her face

" I'm sorry "

" I know " she said

" Can i buy you some ice cream or something "

" Yes get dressed i will take u out "

She got dressed and we went for ice cream . She kicked her feet back and forth .

" I hope we like the house tomorrow "

" Me too "

" What was our budget "

" 900,000 " i said 

" that's not to bad i guess . Are u okay with spending that kind of money on a home " she said

" Imma stop being. Cheap "

" You are just saving for the future but we do need more bedrooms for the kids "

" What do you think a 6 bedroom will do " i said

" Yes it would be perfect and no stairs "

" Baby we need to be upstairs "

"  so we can have lots of sex " she shook her head

" Do you think we have too much sex "

" No because u are usually gone about 6 months out the year "

" True , i just think you are so fucking attractive "

" I feel like that too "

Before we could start kissing . We got a phone call .

" Hey ma the kids good ?"

" Sj had an episode "  She spoke calmly

" An episode "

" Baby he's Bipolar " She said

" How do you know "

I just started crying . Pj grabbed me

" What's wrong baby "

" Sj has my disorder