You Are Mine [ManXBoy] BOOK 1

Nineteen: Pain and Confessions

Ethan's POV:

After my meeting with a stakeholder, naisipan ko na dumeritsu sa condo ni Riri. Total wala na rin lang naman akong gagawin, maybe I'll just hang out with him all night. I decided to take this you know what I felt for him to another level. Yes, I do like him. Akala ko it was nothing to worry about but damn. This is different. Nang nasa Manila ako, I kept thinking of him. Hindi naman ako ganito noong una pero I don't know everytime I think of Riri, I always smile.

If being gay was the solution to make him mine, I better be gay. I realize I want him so bad. Like he's someone that I want to take care of. Iba siya sa mga babae, I was sexually attracted to girls yes but how about my feelings?. Man, he is special. I can see myself living together with this guy.

Nang malapit na ako sa condominium, I received a call from an unknown number.

Bumaba ako ng sasakyan at pinindot ko ang answer button.

"hello? "

"Ethan!?". She sounds so alarmed at nanginginig yung boses.

"yes speaking. Who's this?". I'm somewhat worried.

"eth... Ethan... This is Marj. Remember? ".

"Marj?. Yeah kaklasi ni Riri.. Why??. Is everything okay?. "

There was a long pause. I heard her sobbing on the phone.

"Are.. You okay? ". I asked her.

"It's about Riri. "

"what about him?. Andito ako sa harap ng condo niya. Papasok palang ako. Oh there he is".

Nakita ko si Riri na ngumingiti sa tapat ng pintuan. I tripped off at nang tinignan ko siya ulit sa pintuan, wala na siya. It's actually weird, parang may umihip na hangin bigla at tumataas yung mga balahibo ko sa kamay.

"uhh. Bakit, anong meron sa kanya? ".

I felt weird parang nanginginig ako and somewhat anxious.

"he. he's in the hospital Ethan. Car accident.".

Humagulhul na siya ng iyak. I felt my body went rigid. Nabitawan ko yung phone at sumandal ako sa pader. This is not true, fucking not true. I heard Marj calling my name on phone at tuluyan na akong nabingi. My heart beats fast at tuluyan na akong umiyak.

I hurriedly snatched my phone at tinawagan si Marj to know what hospital he was admitted.

I was still crying while I drove my car. Halos nanginginig na yung katawan ko. I felt this way before when my dad died. I was out of speed limit I know but I don't give a f*****g care!.

"f*ck!!! Get out of my way!!. "
I was loosing my temper at halos banggain ko na ang ibang kotse.

I did not park my car in a right place. I run off from my car and went to information desk.

She told me where he is and I saw the gang or his classmates crying. I get closer to them and they pointed the room where he was.

"please don't leave me".

I said to no one and I burst in tears.

"he won't. Sinabihan namin ang mga doctor na kakasuhan namin sila at ang buong ospital if they fuck his life".

I saw Marj was really affected and I know she was crying for how many hours since her eyes tells.

Tinapik niya ako at bumalik sa kanyang mga kaibigan.

I was crying as fuck and people were looking at us.

"fuuuuuuuuuuuuck!!!!!!! ".

I shouted to nobody. I was in verge of sadness and anxiety was building its way unto me.