You Are Mine [ManXBoy] BOOK 1

Twenty-Two: Downs

Riri's POV:

He was so mad.  I know he will and it's my fault.  Mukha siyang papatay na ng tao. I was scared as shit.  Ni hindi nga ako makatingin sa kanya diretsu habang umuupo ako sa sofa at kinakagat ko yung labi ko.

"what?!.  Tell me where the fuck  have you been. It's  2 am for goddamn sake?. Ano,  tutunganga ka lang jan?!. You have to explain this shit.! "

Sasabihin ko ba?.  Sana hindi na lang pala ako umuwi.  Ang bobo ko.  Alam ko malalaman din niya ito. 

"I..  I'm  sorry.  I was  really with....  Ethan. "

FLASHBACK

Ethan texted  me to meet him after my class. He also texted  me that I should not tell Christian, he might get angry kasi not in good terms daw sila. I don't know why,  pero I guess it's  not my business to be concerned  of.  Baka away magkapatid lang.  I replied him okay.

We were at a park.  He told me that this park reminds him of his first crush.

"wow!.  Talaga?.  I thought  player or cassanova ka!.  Nako,  ang dami kong nalalaman sa iyo. ".

He smiled. He's  gorgeous, he's  hot.  He was different  when  he stares at me. 

"what's  wrong? ". Tanong ko sa kanya.

"nothing. "

"may problema ba? ".

"I  don't  know."

"Ethan?. "

Then suddenly  he kissed me.  It's  not a rude kiss.  Halik na parang ang dami kong dapat malaman.  Halik na nagdudulot sa akin ng kakaibang pakiramdam sa tyan. Parang sasabog na yata ang puso ko.  I felt restless.  Nanghihina ako sa halik niya.  I confirmed,  that  I felt more than  a like.  But I don't  know how to say it.  I just don't  where in fact eto na yung cue na may gusto din siya sa akin.  I hope  so. 

Kumalas ako sa halik niya.  Natulala ako.  Wala akong masabi. Naguguluhan ako.

"I....  I don't  know. ". He said.

"why? ".

" I'm  not gay,  I like girls.  But...  Everytime I was alone,  I always think of...  You. ".

I felt my heartbeat.  Ang lakas ng tibok.  Nagkatitigan lang kami.

" I went berserk that I will loose you on that  day you were in the hospital. ". He added

Tinitignan ko lang siya

" look,  I know this is strange but honestly I prefer more to live with you than live and settle with a girl, have kids and be her husband and a father to my kids.  I was  thinking of you instead.  I ... just like you".

Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko.  Lahat ng mga sinasabi nya tumatagos sa puso ko. Halos namamanhid na yung katawan ko. I was overwhelmed, I was petrified, I felt loved .

"please say anything,  I felt stupid here. ".

Then I hug him.  I want to tell him na gusto ko na siya bago niya ako gusto.  Gustong gusto ko siya. 

"I also like you.  Gusto na kita Ethan bago mo palang naramdaman 'yan.  But what it hinders me from liking you  is that the fact that you're  straight. I was hopeless,  I don't  want to take advantage.  But ang saya ko,  my feelings were reciprocated.  I like you Ethan a lot.".